Ok ok ok... so... basically, I'm going on a date with my friend Kyle. And I don't know when or where yet, only that we are going to go on one.

Do I like him? ... I dunno, maybe?
Am I nervous? Not terribly.
Am I excited? Yes.
Am I going to tell The (non current) Boyfriend? ... Maybe... after it happens...? Dunno.
Do I think that this will change things? I'm leaning toward no, but who knows...
Do I plan on looking awesome? HELL YES.

So that's about it right now.

I just wrote a ton of crap for my Creative Writing class, so my thoughts are just about tapped for now. Sorry! :3

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fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

my heart is aching a lot right now, and I don't know who can fix it.

my heart is now just sort of confused but is definitely not aching. Whoops.

The Boyfriend and I are taking a 1 month break.

We both need to figure out what we want, and how happy we really are with each other, and this was the best way I could think to do it without just breaking up all together. A break just gives us a little more hope, I think. Who knows, this'll probably only last like a week, but still. We just need some time to reassess.

Ugh ugh ugh.

I don't think I'll ever be able to be in a relationship with someone without ending up liking someone else... Is there something wrong with me?

I started thinking about crushes, likes, loves and whatever this week. I realized that I could see myself liking/dating almost any of my guy friends. And I was thinking about arranged marriages too, and how it seems like people who have arranged marriages end up falling in love and being happy a lot of the time. I mean, they're at least into each other enough to make babies, ya? So... my thinking here is that really all you need is a friendship and the rest will follow if you let it. It's all about availability and timing, for the most part. I feel like I could go anywhere and find someone who I'd be willing to date and eventually marry.

It's a little less simple than that, of course. Like, I don't want to marry someone who hates music or is mean to me or something like that... but if that's all it takes, then I could honestly see myself marrying any guy who is just a friend to me.

If you're a guy and you're my friend, don't worry, it doesn't mean I have a crush on you. I just think it wouldn't be completely absurd for us to date or get married, probably.

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Dear Creative Writing teacher,

You teach at a private school. Thus, you should probably stop posting things on your Twitter and Facebook like links to your stand-up comedy routine in which you swear, or jokes about wet T-Shirt contests, or anything involving the word "dick" unless it's in reference to someone named Richard.

I really don't want you to get in trouble or fired, because, quite frankly, you are probably the coolest teacher I have this year.

Sincerely,
Your student.

I'm going to go read this book right now.

:)

Yay for my school getting all of us seniors free copies! Connections rock! Wheeeee...

UGH.

I don't even know why but this just set me off...

I was in class with a couple of my friends. I was even having a really good day so far. Then, we started talking about our two friends who are also a couple, and they were talking about how they no longer like the male side of the couple, and I was trying to defend him in his boyness (since boys generally are kind of dumb... at least at our age... no offense, teeheehee). Nothing really came of that conversation, it just sorta switched to something else, which was fine. THEN, I started talking about this friend (male) who I am planning on chilling with this weekend. All of a sudden my friends are telling me that I cannot date him (well one friend, really, the other was just sort of there when it was happening and just nodded along for the most part). Hello, I am already dating someone... Sure, I might *happen* to look adorable while I hang out with this friend, but so what? No big deal.

So then my friends (again, mostly just the one) start saying how they don't like this guy and how they've only heard bad things about him. I ask if they actually know him personally, and go figure, the answer is NO. Guess who does know him personally? ME. Just because you know his ex-girlfriend who had ONE bad story about him (which could have very well been blown WAY out of proportion, especially since it "happened" like 2 years ago) doesn't mean you know everything about him. He's never done anything mean to me, and since I've known him, he's actually been a pretty fantastic friend. He helped me out a lot just by BEING THERE FOR ME this week, and I thought maybe this would be a good time to try and get together more.

So yeah, I guess it wasn't a huge deal, but I just completely shut down after this. I started doodling/writing in my notebook about how judgmental my friends (mostly with one in mind, not really the other, to reiterate again) and then my one friend starts passing me notes like "I love you" and "you're pretty" and whatever. I don't care what you think of me, and I don't care if you choose not to like some of the people I'm friends with, but don't act as if you know them so well that you can criticize them and then act like I'm crazy to want to be friends with them. UGH.

-_-

The rest of my day was spent mostly avoiding/ignoring the one friend. I was fine with the other, 'cause she is generally way awesome and wasn't really contributing to the hatin' and such. It'll all be blown over by the next time I see her, so I guess it's fine. I just... ugh, especially since the more I think about it, she complains about a LOT of people, so I hate to think what she says about me. (Not to say that I don't participate in my fair share of gossip, but still... yikes.)

/end rant.

THIS IS GOING TO BE AN AWESOME WEEKEND!

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I put this in paper form under the flags of a bunch of mailboxes in my neighborhood. I'm slightly altering for this blog. So yeah.

WAIT! Before you just ignore this post, take a minute to just look it over. I’m not asking for money, for help, for anything but a little bit of time and an email response if you feel so led. (This first chunk is a poem I wrote for class, and the rest of it goes with it.)

The Least

Father and daughter
Sweep their feet along the dirty street.
With nothing, they search
For even scraps;
No better than the alley cats.
Not one penny to their names,
Nothing but their torn and tattered clothes,
Wishing for winter to never come.
They are the least.

You lie there,
Body broken by aching disease.
You cry out for healing,
For peace.
And yet you remain weak,
Consumed by thoughts of your own pain.
You beg and plea
For just a little more time; more life.
You are the least.

I see nothing but my life,
Self-absorbed and uncaring,
I hope against all hope
For happiness.
And yet I am so unwilling
To open my eyes to the life outside.
I remain wrapped up in my own problems,
Just barely beginning to want to unravel.
I am the least.


Who are the LEAST?
The least are people in the world who have some kind of problem. Thus, each person is among the least. Some are poor, diseased, in jail… but others are just sad, lonely, or lost. Others yet deal with problems like anger, conceit, or habitual lying. Every person is the least, and every person has been affected by the least. I invite YOU to email me at HowAmILeast@gmail.com and tell me something about your experience with the least.
Some questions you could answer: How are you the least? How have you been affected by the least? How can you help the least? If you’d like, you can even ask me about the Least or about this project. Lastly, pass this on to a friend if you want!


What is LEAST?
LEAST is a production put on by my school which is made up of a play interspersed with student art pieces, as well as a gallery for student art. All the pieces of artwork, like poems, paintings, or videos, as well as the play, are all connected to this idea of who the Least are. The driving force behind it all is this Bible verse: Matthew 25:40 "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Ask me if you'd like more information.

Why am I doing this?
This paper is the result of a school project, but it’s more than that. It’s an attempt to talk about how every person is hurting in some way, and how we can all help. It’s also an invitation to anyone to check out the LEAST program at my school. The responses I receive will be compiled and presented to my class, and then maybe to the rest of the school. It will be completely anonymous (unless you really WANT to be known).

It is so windy, I think my house might get blown over... or maybe just blown into Oz...

Today and yesterday were rough. The Boyfriend and I almost broke up... again... but again we stayed together. We are working on fixing our problems (such as I will try to stop being mean so much and he will start listening to me better). There is one issue which cannot be solved at present. Ask if you want to know that one, it's a little too personal to post up here. Right now, we are just trying to get past it, but we'll see how it goes. Another strange thing is that now The Boyfriend is trying to "figure out what he wants" but he doesn't know how to go about doing so. He refuses to actually break up with me straight up, so I guess the option of trying to figure out what he wants through seeing other people is out. Works for me, I guess? I don't know.

I mean...Hmm...

I love him. I love him so much it's crazy. I put up with a lot of crap for him and from him. But sometimes I just take him for granted and treat him not so well... And what's worse is that I realize it EVERY SINGLE TIME and yet it's like word vomit... I just can't stop myself in time. So I'm working on it. I tend to forget that The Boyfriend is somewhat moody/sensitive, so I can't really say certain things to him that I could (jokingly, of course) say to other people. However he has no qualms with teasing me. >_< No fair! But I told him that I hate being teased, especially since, as the youngest sibling, I've had to deal with it for many many years. Hopefully he and I will both get better about that.

I hope that my being really open and vulnerable here is not too weird. I'm just trying to be honest and say what I want. I mean, that's why my facebook doesn't link to my blog. That's what I don't really tell people I know in-person about it (Maggie/Kailyn, you are special exceptions!). I like the fact that I can say nearly anything I want to (and even hold back the things I don't want to say without caring whether or not it annoys people). This blog is a very nice place for me to situate my brain every once in a while.

So hum... What else what else... I don't know. Leave me a comment and maybe I will make up a post about it for next time.

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Really sorry for the lack of updates lately. School and friends and life in general have just taken up all my time, and what they have not taken away goes to sleep. Bleh.

The Boyfriend's homecoming was fun. It was, as some would put it, "a total grindfest," however as I do not mind grinding, it was pretty fun. I especially loved the fact that "Don't Stop Believing" came on and EVERYONE started singing. :) Faaaantastic.

My homecoming week has been great. It's wonderful to be a senior. :) I've been feeling quite nostalgic, though, too... Remembering homecomings past has been amazing and yet really sad, too. This week was a lot of fun with dress days. They were:
Monday: Class color day (seniors wore purple!)
Tuesday: Backwards/Clash/Inside-out day (with a backwards class schedule!)
Wednesday: Western Day (yeehaw!)
Thursday: Masquerade Day (remember my prom dress? that + a mask = my outfit)
Friday: School spirit day (Maroon and white Snuggie, ya?)

We had yelling contests and craziness all over the place. Today, there was a 1/2day for classes, then a pep rally (which was sorta lame but I'm too blehhh right now to complain). My friends and I ended up chilling at this farm place near my house, then going back to my house b/c it was raining. We then proceeded to go to Starbucks, and then the Dollar Store (everything costs $1, go figure), and then back to school. We saw all the floats (ours was awful, but whatevs), and then decided to go inside. It was cold, raining, and just icky all-around. While the soccer games went on, my friends and I chilled in the senior lounge, then went to Steak&Shake where we ate deliciousness. We went back to school, hung out indoors again for a reeeeally long time, and finally went outside for like the last 2 minutes of the varsity soccer game. We tied and then it was fireworks time. The fireworks, as usual, were incredible. :) My friend and I ended up sobbing with each other for a minute, thinking about how it was our last homecoming and such... it was so sad... But still, a nice night.

The Boyfriend walked me to my car, we said goodnight, then he went to his car and we both drove home. Obviously, I arrived at home, since I'm writing this. :)

Hopefully that brings you up to date on my life. :D

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p.s. My school's very first ever dance is tomorrow! It's a square dance, yay!

Geez, I haven't posted in a while (like a week!). Sorry about that.

How do you keep from killing your friends? Ha... That sounds very weird. I promise, I'm not actually homicidal... I'm just very very annoyed at two of my guy friends right now.

One of them is acting very stupid and I guess like he knows everything... I don't know how to explain it other than that.

The other... well I guess he was stupid a long time ago and I suppose is still not entirely over it? Which just annoys me because OK I ADMIT THAT I'M NOT ENTIRELY OVER IT EITHER. (You'd have to know what I'm talking about to fully understand this... but I don't want to post the whole story here.)

Bah.

In other news, I spun out/hydroplaned in the truck today! Wooo.... Scariest moment of my life, basically. It was awful. The end.

Sorry, not feeling terribly descriptive atm. Hum. IM me? PellucidRatafia.

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Woooo, I have no school today!

I got my Nintendo DS! It's red and IT MATCHES MY PHONE! :D I only have Scribblenauts right now, but that is fine because it is funfunfun. Also, I think I can play Gameboy Advanced games on it? Or Gameboy... or somewhere in the middle... I don't know, need to investigate.

I was at my friend Maggie's last night for a sleepover. We went to Starbucks with our friends Lauryn and Bryan, and their friend John (Jon?), who Lauryn wanted to set up with Maggie. Woo. Anyway, we got back, went to Blockbuster, picked out this movie called Session 9 (Allan, I know you blogged about this one before), which I really didn't want to see but everyone else did, and then went back to Maggie's house.

Well we watched the movie and ate pizza. Then just generally hung out, boys left, yadda yadda. Lauryn was very awake, I suppose, so she kept talking and reading a magazine and the TV was on a music channel but it was a bit too loud, so I couldn't sleep. Once she decided to go to sleep, the lights and TV were turned off. Fairly average. I closed my eyes, snuggled up with my kitty (stuffed animal from none other than The Boyfriend) and tried to sleep. Well... I'm not sure whether or not I got any sleep... I know the lights were on until at least like 12:30, and I remember being awake for a while... so perhaps not. Anyway, one of Maggie's cats (a real one) jumped up on the couch with me and snuggled up. Still, I could not sleep, and I began to be scared.

I get sort of paranoid at night... it's really awful. I don't know if it was the movie, or the fact that we were in the basement, or just because I'm always kinda freaked out when the lights go out and I've got nothing to see/listen to, but my level of fear just kept rising. It got to be 1:30am, and I was crying and having a hard time breathing. I guess that is something along the lines of a panic attack, right? So I tried to calm down, but the freaking out and the shaking got worse, so I just woke Maggie up, told her I was going home, gathered my stuff and left.

My mom was very confused when I got home, but didn't ask me anything after I said "a panic attack or something." I went to my room, and ended up finally falling asleep at like 3am.

UGH. I only remember this happening one other time in my life, and I don't recall why, but I remember it was for an actual reason. Last night was just weird and stupid.

Blah this entry is too long! So sorry! But yeah, that is my story. Peace!

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KAIROS WAS AWESOME! :D

To anyone who doesn't go to my school (so that's basically everyone but Maggie & Kailyn), Kairos is basically the group of international students who are attending my school (most of whom live with host families), along with a few American students. The whole idea is just to chillax together, to make friends, talk about life, worship God a little, and so on. Tonight was my first time going, and I have to say, I loved it. It was a little awkward at first, because I didn't really know anyone aside from a couple of the other American students, but it was fairly easy to just sit down and chat with people in a group, so that was nice. I'm definitely excited to see where this thing goes throughout the year. Hmm... if you were wondering, we have students from:

China
Korea
Peru
Cuba
Zambia

aaaand maybe some more that I am forgetting... I think there are 16 or 18 international students, so it's a pretty big group, but it still was easy to get along and have a good time with everyone. Yay! :D

In other news, I got my debit card in the mail today! Huzzah! I am excited to use it on something (i.e. a DS, haha) and also to take it to France with me, which is what its original purpose was. I still have yet to memorize my pin code, teeheehee. I'll do it soon.

I guess that's all I've got for now. Peace out, homies.

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Ugh ugh ugh.

I hate it when my feet are too hot and I'm crying and my ribs are squished, especially when they are happening all at the same time.

-_-

On the other hand, I made a good choice tonight, and I will see how it goes. Going to test it out for a month and then reevaluate my decision afterward. (The Boyfriend and I are still together, fyi. The decision was nothing along the lines of breaking up or anything near that... just if you were wondering.) So we shall see.

I should, in theory, be getting my debit card in the mail within the next 3 days! Huzzah! I am mostly excited because then I won't have to carry around cash with me anymore, so I won't try to spend it all at once (again, in theory). I realllllly wanna get a Nintendo DS (or DSi or Lite or WHATEVER, as long as it's cheap), so I'm working on saving the smallish amount of money I have for that. Wheeee! :D

I watched this movie in my Doctrine & Apologetics class called "Lord, Save Us From Your Followers." We've actually been watching it bit by bit in class over the last week or so. I have to say, it was really good. The whole point was basically this guy walking around talking to people about Christians (sort of about Christianity, but more about the people who claim to be a part of it). What he found out (not so surprising), is that most people don't have a problem with the faith. They just have a problem with the followers. A lot of the time, Christians come off as judgmental, hypocritical, narrow-minded and so on. I've seen a fair share of this myself, and I'm sure at some points I've been guilty, too. But anyway, it was really cool, because he walked around and he just talked to people as though they were old friends, just loving them and being really cool. Most of all, he was LISTENING to what they were saying, instead of walking around preaching at everyone. Honestly, I really wish EVERYONE would listen a little more to each other. If we all loved each other a little more, and I mean loving by listening, reaching out in friendship, or even just going with the old standby of "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all," I think the world would be just a little bit better. No, it'll never be perfect, but who says we can't try to cheer things up anyway, right? So yeah, if you're interested, you should definitely get your hands on a copy of that movie... It's pretty interesting (and fairly entertaining), and I think even to people of other religions (or lack thereof), it'll be a decent watch. (If you do see/have seen it, tell me about it?) ♥

I'm getting tired and I have a little homework to do, so I'll catch you all later. Peace!

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I seriously think I've lost my mind. -_- Ask if you want the deets... I don't even want to post them on here. Gaaahhhhhhhhh.

In other news... I have a stomach ache. Too much pop. Yuck. (That's "soda," to some of you.)

I went to my friend Rich's house today. I got lost on the way there. O.O I've never been lost in my life, at least when I've been driving. I have an excellent sense of direction... just not when there's STUPID CONSTRUCTION involved and mapquest doesn't warn me. Rassin' frassin' friggum fraggum...

Buuuuuut it was super fun. We watched (the original versions of) Halloween and Nightmare on Elm Street. Did you know they were both based in Illinois? Nightmare is based on Elm St. in WHEATON! YAY! Wes Craven went to Wheaton College, I guess... but I think he got kicked out? I'd have to go look him up to confirm that, but I won't right now because I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE IT. I have to say, the ending to Nightmare was... strange... I mean the whole movie was weird, but the ending... it's just one of those WTF moments, seriously. You should go check it out. >_<

Ummm.... nothing more to post, I suppose. Peace out.

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p.s. Don't forget to keep clicking on those things over there -->

Thoughts...

I remember where I was that day. I remember not knowing what was going on.

They shouldn't be showing that on TV.

How could that really happen?




Feeling strange.

I found out that Imogen Heap released another album. It's called Ellipse. I hope it's amazing. I'll tell you what I think when I listen to it all the way through? Right now I am about 30 seconds into the first song, haha.

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p.s. I really love her a lot, hence why I want this album to be amazing.

p.p.s. Don't forget to keep clicking around on those things I posted on the right! :) It seems like such a small thing to do for such huge causes, right? Pretty exciting.

p.p.p.s. You should also check out freerice.com. I haven't played on it for a while, but I'm going to this afternoon. It's AWESOME and it gives... well, free rice, to people. Plus, it helps make you smarter. Double bonus points! SO GO CHECK IT OUT! :D

So I just found an old blog of my friend's (it's from our Freshman year), and there are only 3 entries, and I read them all... I wonder if I should tell her... Teeheehee, they were so funny! She sounded... like a freshman! :D

In other news... I don't think I have other news, actually.

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Hooooly cow, these last few days have been SO strange.

To sum it up? How could I even...?

Lots of tickling happened... LOTS of tickling.

My friend and her (ex) boyfriend broke up. Seeing her sad is really strange... she's such a happy person. I hope she's okay. =/ I love that girl. We might go visit her at her house this evening, if she is up for it. Her mom never texted me back about it... so I guess I shall just text her. No surprise, I suppose.

I just (like literally minutes ago) found an oldish friend on facebook. I didn't know if it was her at first, because when I knew her, she had dark brown hair, and her pictures show her to be blondish... but I'm pretty sure it is. If not... I guess I could just delete her, but I'm 99.9% sure it's her. So yay! Facebook can be quite exciting sometimes.

My (dad's) truck has a CD player! (I discovered this a few days ago!) It doesn't play burned CDs though. *cries* Oh well.

In theory, I'm going to hang out with The Boyfriend tomorrow. Yay! I love seeing him. :)

I'M GOING TO BUY A NINTENDO DS! (Or DS lite). Used, but still. Yay! I'm really excited because I've never bought anything this expensive with my own money before, and also because I really want a DS 'cause all the games look super fun. :) Yay yay yay! So hopefully sometime this week, I'll be able to do that. I'm still waiting on the checks from my mom/grandpa for various thingums. Yay, sort-of income!

I'm still waiting for jobs to call/email me or whatever, even if it's to tell me they've rejected me. No one has been very timely except for Target. Sad. Eventually, I will get a job!

I think that's it?

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EDIT: Apparently it's Blogger's 10th birthday! Wow. So they are using this SocialVibe thing to celebrate. Basically, if you (the reader) click on the SocialVibe box (there are two on the right side of this page - one for To Write Love On Her Arms and another for Invisible Children), and do whatever thing it asks (some kind of weird game thing?), it will donate money to whichever cause. So please, play with the gadgets, and add your own to your pages! :D

EDIT #2: When I Google the name "Norah," the three things I always find are Norah Jones, Nick & Norah's Ultimate Playlist, and (here's the strange one), a whole lot of babies/toddlers. I guess Norah is getting to be more popular of a name for little girls. Hum. I'm not really sure I like that... but yeah, just thought I'd point it out.

Is it sad that I really wish there was such thing as a cooking mmorpg?

-_- I'm such a nerdddd.

Strange day.

Schoolgirl outfits: 1
Trips to the mall: 1
Failed attempts at getting job applications because of age: 1
Tops bought without trying on first: 1
Lemonades: 1
Mel Brooks movies: 1
House episodes: 1
Amputations heard of: 1



Snuggles: Too many to count.

Yaaaaay, late start today! I'm about to brush my teefs and then I'm off to Starbucks and then school. :)

In other news, I have a cold, and yesterday The Boyfriend came over and he was like "aww you're sick I should tuck you in and make you go to sleep" blah blah blah. Maybe next time, honeybuns. x]

I just bought a tractor on Farmville! (You know what I'm talking about.) So basically I didn't have enough money to plant a whole lot so now I'm screwed until next harvest. Yaaaaay. Haha. :D

Nothing really all that interesting to talk about, apparently. Did you hear that The Duggers (is that how it's spelled?) are having yet another child? Wow. I have to say, as weird as I think it is, I kind of admire the fact that the mom has had something like 18 children and is willing to keep on going. And on top of that, they seem like they're all really nice and have good manners and everything. You have my vote, Dugger family.

NO MORE POP CULTURE REFERENCES! BYE!

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My mom and I are making school-colored (maroon & white) Snuggies for me and all of my friends for homecoming week. Needless to say, I am freaking excited. After assembling, we're going to have a Snuggie decorating party, so everyone can personalize their own with ribbons, letters, beads, or whatever else they want. I don't know if I've ever been so excited for fleece in my entire life. :)

On another note, I spent hours (what a loser, oh well) today reading My Life Is Average. I highly recommend reading it. It made me smile. I also recommend My Life Is Great (or good... the website says "MyLifeIsG" so I can't be too sure), if you really want to read some sweet, heartwarming stories. MLIA is more funny, but fairly everyday stories, whereas MLIG is uplifting. I think they're both from the makers of FMyLife (FML), since the formatting and everything is the same... So yeah, there you go, three fun websites to check out.

I need to do some English homework at some point tonight. Not much, just a bit of reading. Wheeeee.

I guess I'm done blogging for now.

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HAY IF ANYONE THAT READS THIS KNOWS/IS LEARNING FRENCH...

You should check out my French blog. I'm using it mostly so that I can practice from home, but I'd like to have a little bit more readership... It'd be nice to be able to read comments (in French, of course) and respond to them (also in French), to get a little practice with two-way writing, as opposed to just me posting whatever comes to mind (and also whatever I can... kind of... say... without too much assistance from wordreference.com or babelfish...).

Mhmm mhmm mhmm so there you have it. :)

School, school, school... what is there to say? I go to class, I talk to friends, I eat, I (try to) learn. The end.










Just kidding. :D THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO IT! I'm a senior, for goodness sake! To begin, let it be known that my schedule is simply AMAZING. French, Graphic Design, Econ, Lunch, Creative Writing, Gov, Drawing, Doctrine&Apologetics. Whee! My teachers are made of win, to put it in internet terms. I already have had many of them for previous courses, which is nice because I tend to leave teachers with a good impression of myself, so to start off with one is wonderful. I'm not trying to sound weird or whatever, but my French teacher seriously loves me. And I love her, and her class, and the language that she teachers... so overall this is a wonderful way to start off my day. I'm excited for all of my classes... well... ok I'm excited to have all my teachers, although I could do without the subject matter for a few (I'll let you guess, teehee). I found out that my Drawing teacher actually graduated in the same class as my sister, so my teacher knew who my sister was when I mentioned her. I thought that was pretty cool.

MAN, THERE IS TOO MUCH TO SAY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE AND WHAT TO LEAVE OUT. I will just say that if you would like to know about my first day, or my school, or classes, or if you want a little high-school advice (not to say I'm a wellspring, but I know a few things after being here for 3 years), or whatever, just leave me a comment on this post, mmmmkay? :)

I am constantly realizing how incredibly lucky I am to be where I am. Even in these past 2 days, I've just been trying to look around and see the wonders of my own little corner of the world. It's a pretty amazing place, this earth. I can't wait to see some more of it.

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edit: p.s. please excuse me if this post sounds at all strange/crazy. I'm feeling a little dizzy right now and I'm kinda sleepy from school so... yeah... my mind is just a tad bit off right now.

I'm freaking out.

Where did Pictures For Sad Children go?!?! :(

In other news, school starts tomorrow.

I'm running on 45 minutes of sleep and 1 large (ish) cup of coffee from Dunkin' Donuts. Mmmmm, coffee.

What is there to say? I went to the campout with my friends. We set up tents among the other tents full of other seniors. We ate snacks and danced to loud music. We partied and drank lots of pop (soda, for all of you not from the midwest... does any other region call it "pop?"). We even played a HUGE game of Sardines, which my group actually "won" because we found the hiders first! Heehee. Anywho... Originally, we had set up two tents, one for boys and one for girls in our group. Well, our whole group wanted to hang out, and were tired of dancing, so we all piled into one tent at around 1am. Four people of our seven person group decided to go to steak&shake, so three of us were left to chill until around 3am, when I guess it closed and the rest of our crew returned to us.

We bonded a lot. Pretty much, we told stories and talked. At one point, we started singing "Lean On Me," which prompted another tent to join in the singing, and yet another tent to yell (halfheartedly) "shut up!" We sang a bit more, then saw some headlights. Minutes later, someone came around to the two loud tents (us and the other singers) that the cops had come to tell us to stop singing so loudly. We listened, however I don't believe that the cops actually came. I think it was just someone pulling up in the car and then them using that as an excuse to shut us up. It just wouldn't make sense for a police officer to be there at that moment, as we'd only been singing for like 5 minutes, and there aren't any stations near my school. They also would not have sat in the car, revving the engine at us... Plus, a smart officer would also most likely talk to more than 1 person, because honestly, how would they know the 1 person would talk to everyone else? Oh well, we still quieted down to be courteous to the quiet tents.

For a while, we all just snuggled in the tent, talking less and less as the minutes passed. By 4:30am, we decided to get a bit of sleep. At 5:15am, I rolled over and looked at my friend Kyle, who was as wide awake as I was. We went to go sit in my dad's truck and talk so that we didn't wake up the others. A little later, our friend Lauryn joined us. A little later than that, someone opened the doors to the school. We made a mad dash inside and picked our lockers (frantically, I might add, even though at that point there were only maybe 8 of us in there). Everyone sprinkled in eventually. We waited a couple hours inside the school, and finally it was time to officially write our names on papers that had our locker numbers on them for the office. We got our combinations, and that was that.

My friends and I cleaned up our area, made a run to Dunkin' Donuts, and then said our goodbyes (until Wednesday, which is day 1 of school!). I have to say, this night/morning really brought in the school year for me. I'm super excited to be a senior. I love the fact that I go to an amazing school where the administration actually trusts us enough to let us camp out there all night long with no supervision. They'd even called the cops ahead of time for us just so that they'd know we weren't trespassing on the campus. It was truly amazing. I'm blessed, to say the least.

I feel ready for just about anything at this point.

Did anyone else have any fun adventures this weekend?
♥

p.s. I just did a word count of this and realized that this blog post is as long as my history summer reading paper needs to be. Wow. 600 words (minimum).

Tonight, at 8pm, I will be arriving at my school.

I will be setting up a tent in the grass (unfortunately in the dark).

I will be sitting, laughing, hanging out with my friends.

I will then sleep (maybe).

After all that, I will be getting up sometime around 5am to make a dash inside the school.

I will be running down the hallway.

I will be picking out my locker, alongside my friends.

I will be making a (fantastic) memory to start off my last year in high school with a bang.





I couldn't be more excited.

SHINY!

Yaaay 150 posts! This is exciting. And so...

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(p.s. if the picture above is just a giant pink box that says "gallery.hd.org" just click on it and you'll see it... I dunno whats up.)

I went shopping today and got some really adorable things. Huzzah! (I went, as usual, with my dad, 'cause he is the best person in the world to shop with. Seriously.)

After that, I baked a cake! (There's a reason behind this, but I do not wish to disclose it here. Why? Because I just like to be silly sometimes.) Then The Boyfriend came over and received said cake. Then we drove over to his friend's house to party. Then I went home. The end.

♥

(Life wasn't very interesting to write about today, apparently, but it was a very good day.)

p.s. (Added a whole day later)... BE ON THE LOOKOUT! My next post will be #150! Oooh, shiny...

In other news...

There are two people I really want to talk to right now. One of them reads this blog (at least sometimes). The other does not (or has not made it known to me).

You win a cookie if you guess who they are. (You won't know if you get them right, but all I said was "guess," right?)

I feel weird and stir crazy and (almost) sad and bored and anxious and everything. I'm jonesin' for a hug.

At about 3am, I realized that all breakups are different from each other. It hit me like a train: not all breakups are caused by fights or people not caring about each other anymore. Not all breakups are caused by mistakes made. Sometimes, breakups happen when two people really love each other, but are just at an awkward or transitional point in life. It doesn't mean that they can't get back together later, either. On occasion, breakups simply mean that the two involved parties need some time apart to reevaluate themselves and what drives them to stay in or get out of a relationship.

That being said, I almost went through one such breakup last night. In fact, I think for about 5 minutes of my conversation with The Boyfriend, I was single, but that was not to last. The reason I'm willing to post about this is because it's my private blog and I use it to exhale any words that can't be said out loud to most of the people I'm close to. Back to the point... We ended up talking for nearly 3 hours, trying to decide if we should stay together and try to fix the weird little things that have been eating away at us both, take a break (the details of said break would be discussed if that was the option we were to choose), or just be friends (potentially with the option of getting back together later on). Each option was seriously considered. Option #3 almost won out, but we decided not to give up without at least trying, first.

The way I saw it, why throw in the towel when, underneath the awkwardness and occasional frustrations, we had something really fantastic? We met by what he believes to be coincidence, and I believe to be an act of God (the reason behind the act is still beyond me). We get along incredibly well, and we've basically been best friends since we first met. We've never fought (not a real fight, anyway). We have our problems, yes, but so does every couple. If, after a while, we can't seem to resolve a bit of the tension that's been looming over our relationship, then we decided to talk about it again and figure out what to do, and if that means breaking up, then that's what we'll do. Right now, though, we are both just going to try to love the heck out of each other.

Sorry, by the way, for being vague about our "problems." For one, they are difficult to explain, and I also don't feel entirely comfortable posting about them because I'm afraid I'll make everything sound like The Boyfriend's fault, when we're both imperfect people who don't always know the right thing to do in certain situations. Also, sorry if I'm all rambly and don't make sense.

I guess... wish us luck/send us prayers/whatever else people do so that we can figure out how to work on things. It's not like we have huge problems that are impossible to overcome, so hopefully it will all work out for the best. We're still absolutely nuts about each other, and can't imagine life apart (meaning even if we do break up, we'll still be best friends... after a while).

I don't say this enough... or have I ever, even? Anyway, thanks for reading. ♥

(500) Days of Summer was a really good movie, in my opinion. I actually didn't predict too much of the plot (there was one major plot point I saw coming from a mile away, but only because of some foreshadowing at the beginning). I won't tell you any details, because you just have to see the movie for yourself if you want to know about it. (Or go look it up, I don't care, but you won't get anything from me!)

I have to admit, part of me wanted to see the movie just because the main stars are very attractive people. I find Zooey Deschanel incredibly beautiful, and Joseph Gordon-Levitt to have this kind of shy handsomeness that is so rare (at least, in my world). I also liked how it looked like an "indie" flick. I wanted to feel cool watching it. I guess my intentions in seeing it were not great, but I'm glad I saw it, either way.

It's the same as when I wanted to see Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist. The ONLY reason I wanted to see it was because, and I'm not kidding here, my name was in the title. I'm glad that I watched it, because I really like it now, but I wanted to see it for a stupid reason.

I guess it doesn't really matter why we want to watch movies. It just matters what we think of them after we've seen them. I can't remember the first time I watched my top two favorite movies (most favorite being The Princess Bride, and second favorite being Waking Ned Devine), but I'm glad I saw them. They are excellent examples of great cinematic endeavors. (Speaking of which, William Goldman, author of The Princess Bride, had his birthday a couple days ago. Not sure if I mentioned that in an earlier blog post.)

So how do you choose what movies to watch? Do you remember why you wanted to watch your favorites for the very first time?

♥

Speaking of "modern fashion," go look at my "artsy" blog. I posted a new thing and I'm pondering whether or not to add more to it.

I'm going to Six Flags tomorrow! Yay! With the Best Friend, no less. It should be a blast.

I think I will play some Sims 3 now... yes.

♥

Modern Fashion

Horrible stuff. I want to rip my eyes out. D:

My best sisterfriend came up from Georgia this week. She's leaving tomorrow morning. I miss her already.

:(

!!!

I STOOD AT THE TOP OF THE SEARS TOWER!!!!!!! (That's right, it's SEARS, not "Willis.")


Here are some pictures! :D

Doesn't that look like a speckled rooftop? Or some gravel? It's actually the crowd at LollaPalooza!

From so high up, the buildings just look liked little models, or toys even.

Me trying to be "artsy."

Yep, in this picture I'm standing in a glass box, 103 stories in the air.

I sat in the box, too.

Chicago 2016!! Yeah, baby! Check out all those flags.

It will always be the SEARS Tower.

Look up toward the top of the building... see something that looks like...

little glass boxes? Those speckles are PEOPLE! And I WAS ONE OF THEM! (Not in this picture, but you get the idea.)

So there was my exciting adventure for the weekend/summer. Yaaay!

:)

Answer: YOU PUT A LITTLE BOOGIE IN IT! :D

It makes me laugh every time.

Girls night was lots of fun. We pigged out, talked about random stuff, watched awful/strange/nostalgia-inducing movies, pigged out some more, and slept. We actually never ended up doing nails or baking. Oh well. It was fun. :)

My sister is home! I haven't seen her yet, but I'm going to Chicago with her tomorrow! Yaaay!

I guess there's nothing else I have to say. Toodles!

♥

MAGGIE, IF YOU READ THIS, YOU NEED TO UPDATE YOUR BLOG! It occurs to me that it has been too long since you've done so.

So... I don't really know how to explain this, but I'll give it a shot. I've had a weird couple of weeks. I've been... kind of freaking out. It hit me that this is my last summer as a high-schooler... And even though it's been an amazing one, it hasn't really taken my mind off the fact that after this year, I'll know where I'll be going... and it won't be anywhere near where I am now. I'm really excited to go to college, but I'm also really scared. I'm scared that I won't succeed, that I won't find friends, whatever. More than that, I'm scared of losing my friends (or just being away from them for too long), and I'm scared of losing The Boyfriend. I know, it seems stupid to be freaking out about him, being so young and all that, but he's been a stable fixture in my life for over a year now, and by the time I graduate, it'll be over 2 years (assuming we don't break up before then). Last night, I was over at his house and he was talking about going to his friend's house, and I just freaked. I was like "oh but we were supposed to have another hour together" (yes, in retrospect, I sounded like a moron). And then I started thinking about college and moving out and ended up crying on his shoulder for 10 minutes, not letting him look at me. The problem was that this was in combination with the night before, when I had a major self-esteem meltdown. I don't worry about my looks ever. In fact, I'm a rarity apparently, in that I think I'm beautiful. What I was freaking out about was that I'm not smart enough, I don't know enough about music, or pop culture, and so on. Dumb, but whatever. So yesterday was just a weird combination of freakouts. I feel a lot better this morning, but still... I can't shake this feeling of fear.

Buh, sorry about that. I tend to ramble.

I've been playing Sims 3 a lot this week. I've made 3 new families... yikes. I need to chill out on that, I think.

HERE IS A JOKE! How do you make a tissue dance? (Answer in the comments, I'll post the actual answer later.)

That's all, I guess? OH HAY YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO BLUE OCTOBER, I AM RECENTLY IN LOVE WITH THEM AGAIN. :)

♥

I got my license!!! :D Here's proof (or maybe I just like to show it off, lol).


I've already driven to The Boyfriend's house and to Jewel (the grocery store). Yaaaay! :D

The jazz show last night was fun. We ate pizza while we were there, and then left a little early for ice cream. We went back and watched the end of the show, and then went home. Talked to The Boyfriend on the phone for a while, and then went to sleep. I think I'm hanging out with The Best Friend tonight, so yaaay! :) That's all. Bye!

♥

p.s. I don't know if they do this in every state, but here in Illinois, there are 2 different types of licenses. As you can see, mine is vertical. This is because I'm under 21. I guess it just makes things easier on cashiers at stores and whatnot. When you turn 21, you can go get a new license (well, you have to, as it expires 3 months after your 21st birthday), and that one is horizontal. Soo... yes.

I'm going to try for my license today. Can't say I'm 100% confident, but I think I'll get it. From what I've heard, the test is easy and short, so all I have to do is not screw up too badly. I know you're allowed 2 minor problems, which I'm assuming means like forgetting to signal or stopping past a stop sign, but I'm not really sure. You automatically fail if you go over the solid line in the middle or if you hit the curb, or if you do anything really illegal or dangerous. Obviously hitting another car means failure unless it was the other driver's fault. I think I can do this... I'm a good driver, even in my mom's car, which pulls side to side if you don't pay enough attention to it. I don't have to parallel park or do a 3-point turn, so I should be safe. I know how to turn, park (...sorta), read signs, and all that basic stuff, so I SHOULD be okay.

Excuse the above paragraph, it was mostly so that I could assure myself that I will be okay.

I promised The Boyfriend that the first place I would drive with my license would be to his house. Regardless of whether or not I get my license today, I'm still going to see him because he and I are going to a jazz concert tonight. More specifically, it's his father's jazz band that's playing, so that should be fun. I'm not a huge fan of jazz, but it's okay, and I always have a good time with The Boyfriend, so yeah.

Going to the dunes was a blast, even though the sun didn't show until about 5 minutes before we left. We still got to swim and climb up one of the dunes and bury The Boyfriend in the sand, so overall it was a wonderful trip. I have discovered that The Boyfriend is not that great of a driver, but he's good enough I guess. He also has a big enough vehicle that getting into an accident wouldn't really be all that bad. lol.

Family came over on Sunday. My uncle and aunt came, and three of their sons, who brought their wives/girlfriends as well as their children. Adding all of them up, it came to twelve people, plus myself, my parents, The Boyfriend and his mom, two of my sisters and their fellas, and my grandpa, which gave us a whopping 22 people. Two of my cousins and their attachments left after about an hour, which cut out 6 people, but still, it was a lot. We had lots of yummy food. We even MADE beef jerky! (My oldest sister gave our dad a dehydrator for his birthday, which was the 29th.) Yummmmm. Homemade jerky is the BEST. I can't wait to try drying some fruit. Dried mangoes are my favorite.

I guess that's really all I've got to talk about. I'll post later with an update about my license, maybe.

♥

-Me

I'm going to the Michigan dunes today with the boyfriend and a bunch of his (/our?) friends. It shall be lots of laughs and happiness. The only bad part is that I can't find my camera, but I'm borrowing my mommy's so it's okay (for today, although I'd like to find my camera soon).

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT MY SENIOR SCHEDULE LOOKS LIKE? OKAY HERE IT IS:

SEMESTER 1:

1) Advanced French Honors (basically this means year 3 honors)
2) Graphic Design I
3) Economics & Personal Finance
4) Creative Writing
5) Lunch (note that 4&5 may be swapped)
6) US Government & Current Issues
7) Drawing I
8) Doctrine & Apologetics (aka Bible class... for those of you who don't know, I go to a Christian school)

SEMESTER 2:

1) Advanced French Honors
2) Shakespeare
3) Digital Photography II (I took DigiPhot I during my sophomore year)
4) Faith & Culture (again, Bible class)
5) lunch
6) Study Hall
7) Ceramics II (took Ceramics I my freshman year)
8) 20th Century American Culture

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT, NOW GOODBYE! :D

p.s. I will possibly post later, otherwise MAYBE tomorrow (we are having family over so I dunno), or Monday.

Pee.Ess.

You should check out PostSecret. I still haven't figured out what makes me love it so much... I just do.

Maybe it's the sense that someone is telling me their secrets... that someone trusts me. It feels nice, especially when I have friends that don't even trust me. Maybe it's the fact that right there on that screen, there's something, be it work of art or almost post-it quality, that I can relate to. It makes me feel a little more human. Maybe it's simply the fact that I really like hearing juicy gossip, even if I don't know who it's about.

My guess would be a combination of the three.

Wow, two new readers! Hello! :)

I have just finished my 4 days of work study at school, which means I now have a large chunk of my tuition paid for this year via financial aid. Yay!

The first two days went by really quickly. We painted a maroon room this yellow-ish color... without primer... and latex over oil paint, so it was pretty much peeling off right after we'd finished it. Whatever, not my problem, not the problems of the other people in my group, either. If the paint ends up not working out, then next year's work study kids will take care of it, I guess. Maybe the school will figure out how painting is supposed to work... heh. Anywho, on both days we got out at 2:30 instead of 4:00 because we ran out of stuff to do. Yay, indeed!

Yesterday, I did a lot of random stuff. Watering plants, washing windows (which were not actually dirty), taking out recyling, organizing, whatever. Boring. Today, I did a LOT of cleaning. My group cleaned a stairwell, including walls and railings and carpet... blech. Then, we washed chairs and then we went to wash dishes in the kitchen (apparently, one teacher had stockpiled like 15 mugs in his room over the year and hadn't bothered to take them down and wash them himself... ew). After that, we were done.

Yesterday was also my daddy's birthday! He has a strong liking for huge, plastic cups, so my mom and I found 10 for him. I got The Boyfriend to ask my dad a question about something in the garage, and while they were out, my mom and I put all the cups (wrapped) in the cabinet. When they came back in, I asked my dad if he would go make me a cup of ice water, because I was "so tired and thirsty." He took the bait, and a moment later, I could hear fits of laughter in the kitchen. He unwrapped all the cups and liked them very much. We also gave him a hat with a family joke ironed on to it, and then we got The Boyfriend to give him a roll of toilet paper in a bag. You see, there's this long-running joke in my family where SOMEONE always gives another person a roll of toilet paper. It happens at every birthday, every Christmas, and whatever other gift-giving events roll along. My dad started it, I'm sure. Anyway, we thought it would catch him by surprise if The Boyfriend gave it to him, since he's technically not part of the family, and he's been around the least amount of holidays and such. My dad thought it was hilarious. Yay! After the presents, my mom, dad, The Boyfriend, and I went out to dinner with my two sisters and their fellas. Yummyyyyy Mediterranean food.

So yes, that was my yesterday. After work study today, my mom and I came home and made Paula Deen's Old Fashioned Fudge Pie. It was (and is) delicious! And, it was quite simple. I'd definitely recommend it to anyone who has a craving for chocolate and about 3 minutes to spare (since really, the brunt of the time it takes to make the pie is in the baking).

Sorry for the slew of long posts lately. I tend to neglect the internet for days at a time, considering it's summer and I have better things to do. heehee.

Again, hello to you new people! :D :D :D I can't wait to check out your blogs!

♥ Norah

It's been too long, kids. :(

Sooo... what is up in Norah land?

Last night, I was supposed to see The Cab and The Academy Is... at the county fair. I was SUPER excited. YOU HAVE NO IDEA. I seriously was running around, jumping, whatever. So yeah, we got to the show (about 2 hours early, and still didn't get to be in front). We waited. My foot went numb from sitting on it. (They made us sit for some reason.) The show started. The Cab was excellent, I must say. But, I have to admit, I was really there to see TAI. I LOVE LOVE LOVE them. They're definitely in my top 5. Anyway, The Cab got done, and we waited a little more. TAI started playing, and got through a couple of goodies. "The Phrase That Pays" was (of course) excellent, which is good, since it is my favorite. They played one more song after that (I think), and then started one of the songs from the newest album. It sounded good and we were all having a blast. Now, it had been raining since about 3/4 of the way through The Cab's set, but not too hard. We'd seen maybe 2 lightning bolts, nothing out of the ordinary. So we were a little confused when all of a sudden, Bill Beckett started saying "stop stop stop" to everyone (the band and the folks in the crowd). The guy working at the fair then got on stage and told us that the show was OVER. Everyone went nuts. I seriously thought I was going to be stuck in the middle of a riot. People begged and pleaded, yelled, just stood around... nothing worked. I stayed a little while to help my friend find her shoe (she wore flip flops and one of them had fallen off)... but nothing happened. The security guards kicked everyone out.

Now, here's the part that really bothers me: Bill Beckett looked at the crowd and told us that TAI will be playing at... wait for it... SIX FLAGS in a week (or something soon like that). As much as I love Six Flags and TAI, I'm not going to spend $50 to see a show that I should have already seen for $10. I just don't have that kind of money. I seriously hope they do some kind of make-up show for us. I mean, we were out there, dancing our asses off in the RAIN, muddy and sweaty and disgusting, only to hear like... 4 songs. Needless to say, I'm pretty pissed. (Mostly at the weather, somewhat also at the fair for kicking us off... screw the legal crap, lol... maybe a little at TAI, even though it's really not their fault at ALL.)

Ugh. I called The Boyfriend when we got back to my friend Maggie's house, and almost started crying. CRYING. I was soooo excited about this show. I made a t-shirt and worked on one for a friend. I'd been waiting and waiting and waiting for that day for MONTHS. I even started listening to The Cab more because I wanted to be prepared for the show. (The Cab is good, but not that good. Sorry Maggie, I know you want their bods, lol.)

UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH.

Aaaaaanyway... last night turned out pretty well. I hung out with Maggie and our other friend, Lauryn, at Maggie's house. We "slept" over, which really meant we stayed up talking until 6am and then slept until 11am... haha. It was pretty fun. Let's just say... they know me really well now... hahaha. Yeah.

Here's to good music and good friends. ♥

I would like to post something tonight...

"But I am le tired."

Summer and I have a love/hate relationship...

I have my senior pictures today! It's so weird... I love and hate this feeling of growing up. I'm excited that I'm almost ready to go out on my own, get away from home and my parents... but at the same time, I have this extreme anxiety about not being ready. I'm only going to be 17 when I graduate! What if I really did need that one more year like everyone else? Plus, I have to get my license by August 1st, since I need to get a parking ticket for school. I also have to read my two books for summer reading (although I'm assuming that will be easy) and write the essay on the history book (not so sure about that one). On top of that, I have a college visit this Friday... which, I have to say, I'm pretty excited about, but still, there's that whole growing up thing again. I still need to set up my checking account and get th
e picture taken for my passport so that I can turn in my application, so that I'll be able to go on the France trip that I believe is already 1/2 paid for. Two weeks from now, I will be spending 4 days at school (8am-4pm, longer than school hours, even) with the boyfriend (was going to be my mom but she went and got a job... how lame) so that we can work our butts off in order that I may continue going to my school. It's a little thing called "work study" and I do it so that I can get financial aid, seeing as I go to a fairly expensive private school. That is not really something that I'm stressed about so much as not really looking forward to it. I am slightly worried that I will forget to pack my lunches. But... oh well, I can always make the boyfriend go get me a hot dog from the place down the street. Teehee, I'm spoiled.

That being said... I still love summer. It gives me time to relax (although I'm finding that rather hard to believe, looking at that list up there), time to myself, time to get tan (or just freckly), time to be with friends, family, and the boyfriend, time to swim, time to shop (or just wander aimlessly at the mall), time to make s'mores and camp out, and generally time to have a good amount of fun.

Time to talk about fun/happy things, eh?

I haven't seen the boyfriend in a whole WEEK! (I know, I'm spoiled... most people would not think that is a big deal, but for me, it is.) He's coming to pick me up for my senior pictures today, so I FINALLY get to see him! (He was at his cousin's house, which is like an hour away, for a few days and then at his dad's house for the weekend.) I am very excited, to say the least. There shall be many hugs. I have two very adorable outfits for senior pictures, one of which is brand new, fresh from the mall yesterday. Here are some peektures for you. :D

EDIT: SORRY ABOUT THE BAD LIGHTING AND FAIRLY BLURRY SHOTS AHEAD OF TIME. I WAS TOO LAZY TO MOVE ALL THIS CRAP OUT OF THIS ROOM WHERE IT ALREADY WAS. :D (Anyway, you get the general idea of what they are, so it shouldn't matter too much.)

Outfit #1: Green 1/2 length sleeved blouse from Charlotte Russe, most favorite pair of jeans (skinnies from... Zumiez?), black 20s/30s heels from... Sears? or Carson's.

Outfit #2: White cami (purely necessity, can't really see it), orange tee from Kohl's, White hoodie from Kohl's, golden necklace w/ beads & leaves on it from Kohl's, favorite jeans again, colorful Chuck Taylors (that I had to wash off so that they don't look so grungy).

Closer shot of the shoes

Closer shot of the necklace (which I will probably wrap around my neck twice - 1 long strand and 1 short)

Orson, my teddy bear that I've had since I was 2. My mommy wants me to at least take a couple shots with him as my prop, just because they would be cute. I agreed to do it because he has been with me through just about everything. He even went to the doctor with me once when I was little and I left him there over night on accident. I was so sad, but when went to pick him up, the lady that talked to us (I don't remember if she was a nurse/doctor/receptionist/whatever) said that he was very good but cried all night because he missed me so much. Sometimes, grownups are adorable.

So that is that. I'm not 100% sure I'm going to wear the heels with the first outfit. Might just stick with the Chucks for the whole shoot. Not even sure if my shoes will show up in any pictures.

What else? Well this has been a really long post so I will wrap it up by saying that my next post will be all about the rest of the fun things I'm going to do this summer.

For now, peace out, homies!

♥

OH MAN SORRY I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT POSTING ABOUT MY MOM AND SAYING I WOULD UPDATE AHHHHH!

She's fine. :) She probably has an ulcer. Umm... yes. She came home from the hospital, as planned, the day after going in. Stayed home for the rest of the day and went to work the next day and now everything is back to normal.

My dad left yesterday morning to go on a camping trip with his brothers and his dad (and apparently some of his nephews, too, although 3 of the 4 brothers who did not bring their children were kinda mad about that). My mom and I spent last night... being really weird. We watched "Mr. Mom," which was cute, and it was really funny to see such a young Michael Keaton. Then we decided that we were hungry at 10:45pm. Too bad nothing is open but McDonald's... AND STEAK & SHAKE! So we went and got chocolate shakes and cheese fries. Sooooo healthy, right? RIGHT. When we got home, we got all weird. I think the chocolate made us insane because I just started spacing out and we were laughing at our mutual inability to speak in sentences. I once tried to tell her that "the garlic smells like fridge."

Anyway, we were still awake, so we decided to pick another movie from OnDemand. Found one called "The Song Spinner." I have to tell you, if you would like to laugh your butt off at a horrible movie, "The Song Spinner" may be the one for you. It's basically about this little "kingdom" that has outlawed music and loud noises (but apparently talking is okay because it somehow does not disturb silence). This lady and this little girl meet, and the lady shows the girl music, and the girl is set on making everyone like music and change the law and blah. My most favorite part of the whole movie is when the girl shows the music machine (also called a "song spinner," which basically is like a music box but the turning key is on the top in the middle instead of the back/bottom). At first he covers his ears, but then the girl gives him the key (for the song spinner) that apparently makes you speak truth (golden lasso, much?) and she asks him what his heart thinks and he says, "My heart thinks... that there's a rainbow in my ears!" At this point in the movie, my mom had fallen asleep, and I started cracking up and she woke up b/c of me, but it was so so so funny... geez. What a gem of a film.

*Awkward topic shift* so my sister and I both have ps3s, and we were both "walking around" in the Playstation Home thing, which is basically a giant, animated chat room, where you can walk an avatar around and stuff. Minigames here and there. Whatever. So she and I were talking, and we kept getting hit on by random guys (not abnormal on PSHome). So I'm like "Basically, people calling each other hot in here should be saying, 'I like yo pixels.'" And she and I laughed about it and then every time someone called us "hot" or something along those lines, I'd say that I liked their pixels. Some got it and laughed, some were like "whaaa?" and left. Gooood times.

I don't have anything else to say goodnight!

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I haven't posted in THREE DAYS.

I woke up this morning to the sound of my mother puking. I listened from my bed for a couple of minutes (my room is right across the hall from the bathroom), door closed, blankets still covering my face. I then heard the light turn off and footsteps. I figured that my mom had the flu and was returning to the couch in the living room. Moments later, I heard my mom again, moaning in pain. It sounded like the noise you make when you gag but can't puke, so I figured she probably just needed some crackers or water. I then heard my dad walk down the hall and walk... into the office, to talk to her. She was in the office? He asked if she needed ginger ale or crackers, and she said,

"No, I can't drink anything because it hurts... I think I'm dehydrated though."

My dad then asked, "Do I need to take you to the hospital?" My mom answered him in a groan. Moments later, he was knocking on my door, telling me that he and mom were off to the hospital and that he'd call once they knew what was going on. My mom asked me to call my grandpa and aunt and cancel their brunch today, and to say that she had the flu. (So basically she told me to lie to them, but probably so that they wouldn't freak out. I did exactly as she said.)

My mom and dad left, and I was home alone... for 1, 2, 3 hours. Finally, I called my dad. No answer. He texted me back an hour after that, saying that my mom had an intestinal infection. He would be back soon and would need help packing an overnight bag for my mom. The hospital wanted to keep her there overnight? After a while, my dad came back and we packed a bag. He hopped onto his motorcycle and brought the bag to my mom at the hospital. My dad came back about an hour later. I'd called my mom while he was gone, and she told me that it might, in fact, be an ulcer and not an infection, but the doctors needed to do a test to figure that out. She said she would let us know when they figured it out.

My dad and I had planned to go to a rib festival nearby today, and since my mom wasn't going to go anyway, we decided we still would. We took the boyfriend, and the three of us went to the fest. I ate 2 different kinds of ribs. The boyfriend decided to try these ribs with "atomic" sauce on them. I tried one tiny finger-tip of the sauce and my tonge feels kind of dead in the middle now. Taste buds are basically fried for a day or two. I did not have any more of that sauce... actually I went and got some Dippin' Dots immediately after because it hurt so much.

Anyway, the ribs were good good good, and I also had a deep-fried Milky Way. Yaaaay unhealthy food! They are delicious. You should try one sometime... oh, and fried pickles.

Got home at around 9:30 and called my mom. No answer. I'm guessing she was asleep.

I showed the boyfriend the demo for inFAMOUS that I'd downloaded and played today on ps3. It's AMAZING. I want it. Such a cool looking game.

He left and now I'm here, blogging. I guess that's all there is.

Oh and happy late 4th of July (aka happy 5th of July, lol). I went to the fireworks, as usual, with my dad, but we decided to meet up with the boyfriend and his parents, so that was fun. I got too many mosquito bites, though... and ON MY FOREHEAD, no less. :(

So yeah, that's my life as of today. I'll post any updates about my mom. She's supposed to come home tomorrow.

Peace out, kiddos.

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I have nothing to blog about today?

Go read some webcomics... I only read 8 so I have no link for the letter "s." So sorry. Find one for me? :D

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IT'S JULY WHERE I LIVE! Happy July!

:D

I watched Dirty Harry today with the boyfriend and two of his friends, who are dating each other. That is a great movie, although I found Scorpio kind of ridiculous. I'm not even sure if that is a bad thing, though... I don't think so. He was just actin' like a crazy guy.

And then at the part where *SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER* he went "AHHHH" like a girl and made a fish face and we all started laughing.

I don't have anything else to say. Peace.

OH YEAH I FIGURED OUT THAT I CAN USE PANDORA ON MY PS3!!! :D

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I am now 70% (ish) of the way through Rayman:Raving Rabbids. We figured out that in order to play 2-player, we need 2 nunchuks, not just 2 remotes, so my dad and I will head out to Target/GameStop/whatever sometime this week, I'm guessing.

My arms are tired because of that game. :P

My best friend and her boyfriend got back together. I'm hanging out with her on Tuesday or Wednesday. Woo!

Billy Mays died. You know, OxyClean dude? Apparently his wife just rolled over in bed and noticed that he wasn't breathing. Geez, how awful has that got to be? I feel bad for her. That really sucks.

I've determined that every guy on the Playstation Network falls into one of these categories:
1) My age and stupid
2) Younger than me and stupid
3) Slightly older than me and stupid
4) Enough older than me that it would be creepy if he hit on me, but not stupid.
5) Way older than me and stupid.

So far, I have not talked to any guy there that does not fall into one of those categories. And then the girls are all:
1) Skanks
2) Immature
3) Actually dudes

So of course, I get hit on a lot because I am an actual female who is neither skanky not an immature moron. I hate getting hit on. It sucks. I need a sign over my avvy's head that just says "I'm taken and not interested in anything but gamer friends." Ugh. By the way, if you're on the Playstation Network, friend me! :D I need some less stupid friends. haha.

What else?... meh, there really is nothing else...

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TIME FOR ME TO RANT!

I have a twitter account. (Twitter.com/lepamplemousse, if you wanted to know.) The other day, I asked this: Anyone have any tips on how to encourage your boyfriend to start drawing a webcomic? We have yet to start ours, and I'm getting frustrated.

Do you see, in that twit, "@answers" anywhere at all? No? Me neither. But apparently Mahalo.com saw that and decided it was time to post my question to its own site... using some kind of bot (scraper, I guess it's called) with my twitter account name, unbeknownst to me, of course. A few days later, I was receiving mysterious tweets from some user called "Answers," all of which included about half a sentence and a link. Upon clicking the link, I discovered what Mahalo had done. I posted another tweet : @answers What the heck? You took my question and posted it to Mahalo, even going so far as to use my Twitter account name?!?!

Obviously, the same scraper took the question and posted it, thinking it was legit. Some real users answered me, asking if I'd had a problem or what had happened. One even went so far as to say that I shouldn't have posed my original question to @answers if I didn't want them to respond. Apparently, they don't know how this site works.

Anyway, I posted a couple more responses, not even questions, on twitter, all directed to @answers. Moments later, I saw some more @replies. I tried to look at the links, but what do you know, "Page not found." Mahalo noticed me complaining and took MY words off of THEIR site.

I know it seems like a silly thing to get worked up about, but what if it hadn't been just a little tweet? What if it had been this blog entry? Or an essay posted to Turnitin.com? How far are these scraper sites willing to go?

I seriously hope that Mahalo and other sites like it either get taken off the internet or get a total rehaul so that they won't take unsuspecting people's words away from them anymore.

p.s. If you really feel like annoying someone, tweet a million things to @answers, just random stuff. Okay, so it's not very mature, and probably not a good idea, but part of me almost wants to do it anyway. (I probably won't.)

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So... Farah Fawcett and Michael Jackson both died today. I'm sure you've heard. That's all I have to say about that bit of news.

Today, I finally got to go to the pool! (By "finally" I mean I haven't been to a pool in a couple YEARS.) I went with the boyfriend and three of my friends. We splashed around for a while. It was fun times. And then we went to get dinner at a pizza/pasta place by the boyfriend's house. One of the three friends left. We ate yummy food! Yay! After that, we figured out that we needed to go back to my house so that my friend could get her car so that she and her bf (my other friend) could go home. I guess he needed to be home by 9pm, which the boyfriend and I had not anticipated. The four of us piled into the boyfriend's car, headed to my house. We got there, and my two friends left. The boyfriend and I went inside.

And what did we do, you ask? Only one of the coolest things possible... WE WATCHED THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW! HUZZAH! If you haven't seen it... well, let me warn you, it's kind of (by which I mean VERY) strange. But you should see it. Your parents might not approve, depending on who you/they are... but you should still see it. It's crazy cool. Hard to believe that Dr. Frank-N-Furter, aka Tim Curry, was the same guy that played the voice of GOD in "Animated Stories from the Bible: Music Video - Volume 1." lol WUT. (AND Nigel Thornberry from The Wild Thornberries? Sheesh.)

Anywho... After watching the movie, the boyfriend had to leave. He's sleeping over at a friend's house tonight. We talked about the movie for a minute and then he drove off. I went inside, craving something sweet, so I opened my fridge and BAM! Giant hunk of watermelon. My mommy left a chunk just for me, separate from the melon mix from fathers' day, because she knows I only like watermelon and not the others. At times like this, I can see how awesome she is. So yes, basically, I ate it and it was THE BEST WATERMELON I'VE HAD IN MY LIFE, I think. Yummy yummy.

Overall, today was a successful summer day! Yay!

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I am (hopefully) going swimming at the boyfriend's friend's house today! Huzzah! My house just got really hot... or maybe I am just toasty for no reason. I don't know. I think I shall go eat something, since it is now 3pm and I have not yet done so today. Hmm... oh mah gah I think I motivated the boyfriend a little more on the making our comic front! :D Yaaay. (If you didn't know this, we've been planning on starting one since like... winter... and it has yet to actually happen, although we do have characters and a general setting.)

If swimming does not happen today, then I will probably end up watching Rocky Horror (finally), so really it is a win-win situation. Yay!

Today feels like a good day. The end.

Psst, make sure you look at the links in my last entry.

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I just discovered a new webcomic that I like. It's pretty new (I think there are around 50 strips so far), so I read through the whole thing in like 10-15 minutes. If you like cuteness, bears, baked beans, or adventure (or a combination of these!), you should check out The Purple Hills Afar.

I saw an ad for it on the site for Pictures For Sad Children, a webcomic that I love, and it looked adorable so I checked it out. Sure enough, cuteness abound! Yay!

/end plugs

I've really got nothing interesting to say at the moment. I slept in really late today, so I haven't done very much. Probably going to eat something or whatever. Oh hay, I'll add one more thing.

I have this one ADORABLE dress that my friend gave me. Her mom bought it at Goodwill, but it was too big on her (she's tiny), so she asked if I wanted it. It turned out that the dress was too small for me. It zips up fine until about 1 inch from the top. I've had this dress in my closet for months now, not knowing what to do with it. I really like it a lot. I've decided that I'm going to try to get my mom to help me figure out how to let it out a bit, or add something to the back so that it is wearable. I would really like to wear it to the homecoming dance at the boyfriend's school next year, assuming we go.

It looks like this:

So yeah. That's all. BYE! :D

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Am I the only one who finds vintage bathing suits adorable? I'm talking about the one-piece ones that have a square top a lot of the time and you see in all those old movies. Most of what I've seen Katy Perry wear kind of resembles them.

Meh, I was just thinking about that and how much bathing suits have changed since then. I wish I could have lived back when these were still really in fashion. When I went shopping for my summer wear, I did see a few like this, however... but failed to actually purchase one. :'(

Oh well, maybe next year.

(Sorry if bathing suit entries are awkward or taboo to any of you. I just had to get that out of my system.)

My friend Kyle's birthday party is in about an hour and a half (hopefully, if his power doesn't go out again). Woo!

I think I shall check up on webcomics and waste a bit of time playing flash games.

The boyfriend and I finished Resident Evil 5! Yayyyy! :D It was amaaaazingly pretty, and a darn tootin' fun game, too. I highly recommend it (although I have to admit that I don't know what the gameplay is like on single player, since we played it full through on co-op).

Hopefully sometime this week, I will watch my newly bought copy of The Rocky Horror Picture Show with the boyfriend. I haven't seen it in a long time (so long that I remember absolutely NOTHING about it except that there's some singing and it's in a mansion or something along those lines). I'm pretty stoked. I read The Perks of Being a Wallflower earlier this year, and that movie was mentioned in it several times (kind of a big plot detail, but I'm not really giving anything away here by telling you that).

Speaking of Perks, HAVE YOU READ IT? I LOVED it so much! It was a really great book. I highly recommend reading it if you have not yet done so. It's fairly short (like 180 pages or something along those lines, if I remember correctly). It's from 1999, and it was set in 1991-1992, so there are a few pop culture references that may make you think back a bit, but nothing terribly hard to understand. The character supposedly writing the book, called "Charlie," made a reference to Harvey Milk at some point. I don't exactly remember why. I was reading the book right after the movie Milk came out, so I chuckled a little bit about that. So yeah, READ IT READ IT READ IT! :D

Alright, I'm done rambling. See you crazy kids later.

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Happy Fathers' (Father's? I GUESS IT WORKS BOTH WAYS!) Day!

I'm going to a minor league baseball game (which are really the best) and then coming back home for barbecue! Yum! Nothing like bbq ribs. :D :D :D After that, we will probably play Wii or something, since most of my family likes to do that. I got my dad a Wii game for Father's Day. It's Rayman: Raving Rabbids. It's supposed to be this really weird/crazy/funny party game, so I'm hoping it'll be fun.

Not much else to say at this point. I may edit and add more later, if I feel like it.

Spend some time with your dads, grandads, friends' dads, or people who are just like dads to you! Make sure they know how much you appreciate them! Yay!

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OK, this has been driving me nuts ALL day.

I was watching TV with my mom one time, YEARS ago, and we saw (I think) the beginning of this one movie. There was a boy walking down a street in a hoodie. It looked like it was probably really hot. He was bleeding, I think from his arm, and it was dripping on the ground. Then, some adult (I think his dad or someone else he knew) came by in a truck or a van or something. The adult was freaking out but I remember the boy not really saying anything or having a reaction to anything. He may or may not have had a skateboard with him.

And then the channel was changed, the movie never to be seen by me ever again.

For some reason, I was just thinking about that movie, and I was wondering if anyone out there on the interweb knows what I'm talking about. It's been driving me nuts. I keep filling the spot of the adult with Clint Eastwood, but I don't think he was actually in it. That's just my brain doing weird stuff.

SOMEONE FIGURE THIS OUT FOR ME PLEASE! Google is not being terribly helpful at this point in time.

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EDIT: So I put this up on Yahoo Answers, and some guy replied that I had seen the beginning of Arlington Road. I checked it out, and I think he's right! Yaaaay! :D

Nevermind.

Long story short: my family is not dependable for a lot of things, thus, after driving for two hours in the rain with the boyfriend and his father, we were unable to attain the Cubs tickets. We ate, and then went home.