I just wrote a 5 page paper about 6 songs. Woot. I feel very accomplished. I was feelin' the project so much, in fact, that I made a COVER PAGE for the damn thing. AND printed out all the lyrics to the songs. AND made a pretty cover for the CD that goes with the paper (as per request of my teacher). Sometimes, I really think I can do anything if I put my mind to it.

If you were wondering, the project was basically to analyze 6 songs from 2 consecutive decades (so 3 songs each). They had to be decades we studied in history, and they had to be post WWII, so I picked the 70s and 80s. I know, there was a LOT of crappy music at that time, but there were also some gems. It was hard picking songs to write about, though, 'cause I had to weed out all the relationship songs and the songs about nothing and such... I came up with these 6. (Please note, I don't necessarily like all of these songs, but they were interesting to read/write about.)

'70s:
1) War by Edwin Starr
2) American Pie by Don McLean
3) Let It Be by The Beatles

'80s:
1) Ebony and Ivory by Paul McCartney and Stevie Wonder (kind of an lol)
2) Dancing in the Street (covered) by David Bowie and Mick Jagger
3) 99 Luftballons by Nena (English version called 99 Red Balloons, even though that's not the right translation, as "Luftballoons" just means air balloons or simply balloons... not to nitpick)

So there are my songs. I analyzed them and wrote about them and blah blah blah. American Pie had to be the most interesting one. 99 Luftballons was probably the most confusing/difficult to explain in actual words, haha.

ANYWAY... well really, there is no anyway. I haven't done ANYTHING today. I started reading up on songs at about noon today and just finished printing and putting everything in a folder about 15 minutes ago. I think that my writing was crap, but I don't care because it was so interesting to read about all those songs (and lots of other ones... do YOU know what the song Relax by Frankie Goes to Hollywood is about? I do! ;) I'll think twice about buying a "Frankie says Relax" shirt from now on and will laugh at those who wear them).

Not much else to say. LEAVE ME COMMENTS. Ok not really. Do what you want. :D

Peace. ♥

Unfortunately, I have nothing of interest to post today.

Here's what went down today...

1) Played a helluva lot of Little Big Planet (tried to figure out how to build cars and played lots of community levels)

2) Went on facebook for like a minute

3) Talked to the boyfriend on the phone for an hour and a half. We've finally established the fact that we are not *planning on* breaking up before we graduate and do intend on at least attempting to make the relationship work going into college. If that doesn't work out, then fine, but it's worth a shot. Needless to say, I'm pretty happy about that.

4) Was picked up from my house by the boyfriend. Went to his friend's house, hung out, the boys finally started their game of Axis&Allies about 30 minutes before I left.

5) Got home... which is where I am now.

Tomorrow, I will be doing the entirety of my history project, which should take me about an hour, haha. All I need to do is compile a mix of 6 songs (3 each from the 70s and 80s) and analyze them. Add an intro and conclusion and bam, I'm done. It's pretty much as simple as that. I may also end up seeing the boyfriend again, only this time in the context of just the two of us, which would be nice. Even when I get to see him often with other people, I still miss having alone time... I guess that sort of makes sense?

I guess having nothing to say really turned into having a few things to say. Hello, world!

♥

Huzzah! Today was my last Friday for the school year!

I went to a party (not really a party party) today. Nothing major, just hangin out. The boyfriend and I went to get pizza for everyone with his other friend (who may have been smoking *something* in the back seat).

Weird music was heard.

I don't have much to say, now. Bye. :)

p.s. I really don't like all the break-ups that have been happening lately. :(

I don't know what to post!

A follow up to a list of 100 things that I like seems rather difficult.

I watched Apocalypse Now (the Redux version, I guess?) today with the boyfriend. That was one of the more disturbing/weird/icky movies I've seen in my lifetime. I mean... it was a good movie, compelling and all that, but... sad and gross. And I don't feel like it was very representative of the Vietnam war. I guess I can't really say, since I wasn't there, but... riding in a boat and then (SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER)? Just doesn't seem quite right to me.

So that was that.

Today, I cried... for the first time in a long time. One of my best friends is leaving school. Today was her last day, even though the school year ends in a little under 2 weeks (including finals). She's just got some stuff going on (this is the one with the sick relative) and I think she just needs to be at home right now, and spending time with her family. She's gonna take a couple classes this summer and graduate early, so she won't be coming back next year, either. This is so weird... this person... I can't imagine spending a week, let alone another school year, without her. Sure, I'll see her often (as promised/demanded, heh), but... I dunno. It's just a strange thought that she won't be with me to make jokes during class and complain about projects and doodle on random things. And... to be honest, I'm kind of afraid. Yes, my 4 other close girlfriends at school are amazing, but it's weird to think that one of our six won't be with us as often... the one who I feel like I can most relate to, at times... I love all my girls, don't get me wrong. But she's the one I've been able to talk to about stuff all along... I dunno, I guess I'm just rambling here. My point is that my friends and I all sobbed together at the end of the school day... it sounds so dumb when put into words, but that's what happened. I'm probably going to go cry some more after I get done posting this. =/ Jay Bee... I love you so so so much. I hope you know that. You are an amazing girl and remember that I'm ALWAYS here for you, no matter what. Who else could be me and my 49 (or 196, or 7, or 1, or 4 or 2 or 8) selves? I know we'll stay close, but we've got to work hard, okay? Okay. Good. (Remember that? haha.)

I guess that's about everything I've got to say.

Hmm... oh, I finished writing my speech... I need to edit it a bit but whatever. I'm giving it on Thursday, which means lots of practicing tomorrow.

Not really anything left.

Peace out, kids.

♥

p.s. If you know someone who means a lot to you, don't be afraid to tell them, kay? It was weird... for maybe the first time, I looked my friend in the eye today and just said "I love you," right before we all went home. Maybe you don't need to do exactly that, but don't hesitate to let people know that you care about them. It really is for the best.

100th post!

Hello there, anyone who is reading this! This is no ordinary entry in my blog... you see, this is my

100TH POST!!!

I'm pretty stoked about it, so I've decided to celebrate! First, a list of 100 things that I like! Heehee.

1. blogs
2. converse
3. cherry chapstick
4. music
5. the color orange
6. dresses
7. dancing
8. cooking
9. s'mores
10. pizza puffs
11. pugs
12. One Headlight by The Wallflowers
13. white cran-strawberry juice
14. good books
15. Good Eats (tv show)
16. The Princess Bride (movie&book)
17. star tripping
18. B.G. (my stuffed kitty from teh bf)
19. webcomics
20. The Sims (JUNE 2, BABY!)
21. cameras (of all shapes, sizes, and types)
22. PaRappa the Rapper (for Playstation original)
23. Macaroni Grill (or any restaurant that puts out paper tablecloths and crayons)
24. summer
25. rain
26. the words "enthused," "indeed," and "vernacular"
27. cute text messages
28. big headphones
29. arm/leg warmers
30. beanies
31. my Poang
32. Ikea
33. Cocoa Wheats
34. sales!
35. filling out forms
36. getting good grades
37. V8
38. thinking about being a grown-up
39. but still being a kid
40. lunchtime at school
41. making funny faces
42. Pandora
43. 10 Things I Hate About You
44. study halls spent outside
45. French
46. making fun of stupid things
47. the Magic Bullet infomercial
48. not having an iPod
49. my birthday

50. regular holidays
51. facebook
52. bands that change their names
53. cosplaying
54. college mail
55. making lists
56. talking to people on AIM
57. l337
58. being the youngest one in most situations
59. digital clocks
60. my comforter
61. Guitar Hero
62. karaoke
63. being home alone
64. attractive boys
65. Cosmo & wedding magazines
66. Filthy Gorgeous time.
67. good smelling shampoo
68. giving people presents
69. ...okay and getting presents, too
70. roller coasters
71. going to the arcade
72. pretending like I know how to scrapbook
73. having smoothly shaved legs
74. going to normal-ish places in a fancy dress (i.e. bowling or Steak & Shake)
75. having a TV in my room
76. The Regular Guy (only Chicago-area people will get this, unless they listen to his podcasts)
77. meeting people I admire
78. the smell of lilacs
79. carnations (favorite)
80. syncopation
81. MS Paint contests with friends
82. trying to do the Thriller dance
83. horribly awesome movies (Evil Dead!)
84. attempting to sew
85. backspace
86. funny faces
87. band shirts
88. lolcats & failblog
89. bobby pins
90. not being in the frosh-soph hallway anymore
91. Homecoming week
92. telling stories
93. poetry
94. fresh notebooks
95. hot cocoa
96. jumping in piles of leaves
97. painting random things that most people don't paint (like shelves and shoes)
98. hugs and kisses and snuggling
99. Scattergories
100. Wikipedia

There you have it, folks, 100 things that I like!

And now, a picture!!!

I took this from the car, while my mom and I were on our way to Tennessee to see/meet Alton Brown at Opryland! It was by far one of the most amazing experiences of my life! (Good Eats, his show, is on the above list.)

What else is there? I think nothing, so there you go. Happy 100th post to me! Heh. Hope you were not too annoyed by this post. ;)

Lots of love.

♥

Star tripping is my new favorite thing to do at night. Hahahahaha.

So I had a bonfire at my house last night, and there were I think 10 people there, give or take. It was super fun. We had hot dogs and s'mores, listened to music (mini dance party... Maggie taught us how to Pop, Lock, and Drop), told stories, tried to play Red Rover (did not work well), had a piggy back race (technically Bryan and I won because we touched the fence first, even though Kyle and Lauryn were actually faster I think), sat around the bonfire, and of course went star tripping. Overall, I would call it a successful welcoming to summer vacation! (1 week of school and 4 days of finals left!)

Today is my best friend's graduation! I am so excited!!! Last weekend was her 18th birthday, and now it's her high school graduation! She's so grown up now, it's crazy. It's also crazy to think that a year from now, I'LL be the one graduating!

I thought maybe I would write my speech for English today, but I just don't want to, so I'll write it tomorrow, unless I get inspired today for some reason.

That's about all for now, kids.

♥

EDIT: Graduation was good. I kept myself busy while they read off the 500+ names by reading them to see which people were skipped and imagining why they were gone (kicked out, didn't feel like it, forgot, didn't have enough credit, etc.). It was fairly short compared to the other graduations I've been too. So now, my best friend in the world is a high school graduate. That is somewhat crazy to think about.

The bigger reason for this edit ('cause the graduation stuff really could have waited) was to tell you that tomorrow, I will be celebrating my 100TH POST!!! Woooo. I'm thinking up some fun ideas about what to post, so be on the lookout! Can't believe I've made it to 100 this quickly. (What a nerdddd.)

Hello, yet another fantastic day. I'm really enjoying this! :]

Maybe it's not that my days have gotten better recently... maybe I've just begun to appreciate them more. Not sure about that one. I guess it would make sense, though. Either way, I like it.

School was pretty good. The end.

Tonight, I ate dessert first! It was excellent. The boyfriend and I both had root beer floats at the ice cream shop near his house, and then we went back to his back yard and played a board game. It was fun until the bugs starting eating me, so we went inside and played Uno with his mommy. I love her. She is one of the best people ever, no questions asked.

After the Uno, the boyfriend and I decided that we were hungry for reals, so we went and got Subway. I will tell you something here that you don't want to know: my favorite/only order from Subway.

6 inch Italian herbs and cheese bread, with ham, American cheese, pickles, and chipotle southwest sauce

EVERY time I order that, I get the same weird look from the people around. So what if I just like to combine a whole lot of good flavors? Make your own sandwich if you don't like how mine sounds! heehee.

Anyway, we went back to his house and I got very sleepy. We snuggled and watched some TV, and then it was time for me to go home, which is where I am now.

I have nothing else to add, at the moment! ta ta!

EDIT: I forgot to add this:

Guess who decided it was a good idea to just start drawing on me? I am now not only my own canvas, but also my boyfriend's. heh.

Not much to report, once again.

For the past three days, I have been, for the most part, happy. It's been incredible. The only thing today that made me sad was reading the blog about my friend's family member (the one who is essentially dying, I posted about it recently). The blog itself is very encouraging. It's all about him, and how even though this mystery disease is changing everything about him, mentally especially, some things still stay the same, like how he is very warm and welcoming to people. The thing that made me sad was how I realize I don't spend enough time making sure the people I care about know how much I love them. Sometimes I just take them for granted, which is stupid beyond belief. Sometimes, even though I can be perfectly nice, I act out for the smallest reasons (even yesterday, I was being a grouch to the boyfriend with absolutely no good reason). Sometimes, I just neglect to say what I feel. In any case, I'm realizing more with every passing day that I should be making the most of this life, and that includes making sure that people know I love and care about them.

Hum.

In other news, I am absolutely DETERMINED to get working on the comic with the boyfriend soon. I want to at least get a basic plotline down so that I can start writing strips so that he can start drawing them, but we never can seem to plan very well. I know part of it is how busy we've both been with school, so hopefully the summer will be helpful in that sense. I really want this comic to work. I think it could be incredible.

I guess there's not much else to say for the time being.

OH WAIT. I thought my ps3 was broken today, because it just showed this wave that goes across the screen (it's the main background) but no menus or anything, so I was freaking out... I tried restarting it and unplugging/replugging it and nothing worked. Then, I decided that maybe Google had an answer for me, and you know what, it did! I guess I just had to restore the file system, but I didn't know how to do that before and now I do.

Anyway, I'm really really for reals done now.

Have a nice night/day/etc., peoples!

♥

OMGEEEEZ.

I got 100% on my biology test! It's the first thing I've aced ALL FREAKING YEAR, haha. 33 out of 33 correct. Better yet, it was the test ON THE FROG DISSECTION! Haha. I don't mean to brag, and hopefully it doesn't sound like I am. I'm just HAPPY! :]

Today was overall an amazing day... as was yesterday! I'm hoping my week keeps up like this. Heehee!

It's getting warmer outside! I love love love love love it! Warm is my favorite.

I guess tomorrow or so I should get working on my persuasive speech for English (the outline/intro are due Friday).. hopefully it won't be too hard. I think I'll be fine. 60% of the grade is for the paper, the other 40 for actually giving the presentation, so I'm shooting for at least an 80-85%. (I set my standards low for things like this). CRAP! I also have to do my proposal for my history project. Guess I'll do that now. Shouldn't take too long.

Have a nice evening, kiddos.

♥

I BEAT LITTLE BIG PLANET!

Geez, it took forevs, yo.

Oh and I got signed up for the Playstation Network so if you have an account on it, let me know and we can play ps3 games together maybe! Haha. :]

In other news... well, there is no other news

♥

Also, I think I want to write for a living.
(I know, I've changed my mind about 45 times on this...)

Specifically, I'd like to write short books.
Children's books.
Teaching books.

And I would like them to be in English and French.

I think it's what I'm going to do. It's what I would be good at, anyway.

Some asshole is trying to start drama on facebook. xD

If you don't have the Honesty Box application, I'll explain it to you. Basically, you post a question like "What do you think of me?" or "Do you like my hair?" or whatever, anything you want people's honest opinions on it. I asked why people are facebook friends with me, since I didn't really know what else to ask. This was MONTHS ago, and I've since nearly forgotten about the application. Recently, someone posted that that was a dumb question. I responded in a slightly hostile manner, but only because 1) They should get their own if they want to make a better question and 2) That doesn't actually ANSWER what I asked, now does it?

So then they responded and I responded. I said nothing mean, although maybe a little harshly-toned, and they have since called me a douche AND said I "look like a dyke." I'm a little miffed now, since I don't really like people being assholes to me, but more because they're being anonymous about it. If people have issues with me, I'd like to know who they are and if it would be at all possible to resolve things. That's just how I am.

Also, I "look like a dyke?" Does that imply that this person doesn't actually KNOW me? -_- Also, way to use a derogatory term while stereotyping at the same time. Pretty cool, huh?

People are just so STUPID sometimes! Sheesh.

(Yeah, ok, that was a little mean but ... eh...)

In other news, I had a really good day today! The boyfriend and I went out to lunch and finished playing through Halo 3! We snuggled a little and then he drove me home, which is where I am now. I love days like this. They make me that much more excited for summer!!! Heehee. 3 weeks left of school, one of which is finals week! Yahoo!!!

Mucho love, friends and people I don't know.

♥

Decent day. Not much to say about it except that I did not get a new bathing suit. The first one that I really liked was white, which seems like a bad concept (white+water=see through) and the second one that I really liked was $50... not worth buying, even adding in the reversible-ness factor.

Oh wells.

Today was just basically decent. The end.

Today is Friday! Huzzah!

Nothing happened at school today. Nothing ever happens at school. Sheesh.

Okay, I lied, there was a good chapel speaker today. I am not exaggerating when I say it was the FIRST good one of the year. *le sigh* Makes me kind of sad.

Also, my friend was upset today but she wouldn't tell anyone why. I'm worried about her. I love this girl so much... I just hope that everything is okay. I won't go into too much detail, but I will say a little bit. This girl has been going through this ongoing struggle since freshman year (we're juniors, nearly seniors). A member of her family is dying, and she's hurting. A lot. And today she said something about not being able to make plans this weekend even... up until now she'd been saying for this summer, but today she said this weekend, so I'm pretty sure that this family member is not doing too well. Even if she's been kind of waiting for something to happen, it's still gotta be tough and scary. I just hope that she'll be alright. She's strong, but this has still got to be hard. I just want to hug her.

*insert awkward transition to a lighter note here*

The boyfriend wants to hang out tomorrow. Upon asking me what I wanted to do, I told him to surprise me. I have a feeling he's not actually going to surprise me, and that I'll end up picking what we do (as usual), but it's a nice thought. This is just one of those days when I'm super super super excited to see him. Maybe it's because we analyzed "our" song in my history class today... which was actually kind of a downer, since it's such a happy sounding song with such a weird/bad/whatever background & meaning.

The song, if you wanted to know, is "Mrs. Robinson" by Simon and Garfunkel. It's "our" song because it's the first song I ever heard him sing. We were on the way home from a bowling alley after meeting a few days earlier. We weren't even dating yet. His cousin was driving, and we were in the back seat. My head was resting on his shoulder, eyes closed, and this song came on and just sang it softly in my ear. I nearly fell asleep. It was the best feeling... I don't even know how to explain it. But yeah, every time I hear it, it reminds me of that moment, and how perfect it was.

I guess there's not a whole lot else to say. See you kids tomorrow, then!

♥

p.s. If you're the praying type, could you perhaps please put in a prayer for my friend? Just for comfort and strength, I guess. Thanks. :)

Posted a couple of things on the Artsy Fartsy blog. :] You should go look. They are whimsical.

You have no idea how much I love you.

Happy birthday, bestfriend!

THIS IS WHAT IS SITTING IN MY FRONT WINDOW!

As it is my best friend's 18th birthday, my mom and I had to go crazy. Here is the ENORMOUS bag we found in which to put her 18 random items. :)

We also decorated her garage, but I don't have a picture of that except the one on my phone but that takes way too long to upload.

Just thought I'd share this with you all. Bet you wish you'd been living across the street from me for 14 years, eh? heehee.

OH MANNN.

So I went out shopping with my mommy and we found the best conglomeration of 18 presents EVER. I'll tell you about them sometime, once they are opened, because we wrapped them and now I can't remember all that they are. Teeheehee.

I am super excited to give her her stuff. Seriously. I find so much joy in giving my best friend weird presents. We are just strange people like that.

Last year, for my birthday, she gave me a sippy cup that resembled something that my last name sounds the same as. BUT I CAN'T TELL YOU WHAT THAT IS OR YOU MIGHT KNOW MY LAST NAME OH NOES.

I haven't eaten since lunch... I should probably do that. There's some pizza, I think. Maybe I'll warm up a slice or two. Yummy. :]

Not much to report. I've now seen the entire first season of The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency. (It's only 7 episodes long.) It's pretty dern sweet. YOU SHOULD GO WATCH IT. It's on OnDemand. :]

I guess I will write more tomorrow night. Byebye, kids.

I have Jamie Foxx's "Blame It" stuck in my head. It's been there ALL day. What the heck?

In other news, my best friend and her boyfriend (who I used to be good friends with) just broke up. And basically, he is going to feel the wrath if I'm anywhere near him from now until she feels 100% over it, since it is (pretty much) entirely his fault.

I don't care if you want to defend him. That's what you've got your own blogs for. I don't care if you think I'm only getting her side of things. It doesn't matter. It doesn't make him less of a poo.

Basically, you best be on the lookout for the Norahzilla!

Well hello there, bloggers.

I am home sick from school today. Hoorah! I just watched a couple episodes of The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency with my mom and then attempted (and failed, yet again) to play through The Bunker level of Little Big Planet. I don't think I'll ever end up beating that game. :[

I have a headache, which is the worst part of this dumb cold. I hate having headaches. They nauseate me after a while, which is no fun. I don't like feeling as though I'm about to blow my chunks. Oh well, it will probably go away or I'll sleep it off.

What else? Oh right, nothing, since I'm boring when I stay home.

How are you all doing?

♥

Good afternoon, folks.

I got home from school about an hour ago and I must say that, although I have one heck of a cold, my day has been going really well. I am fairly happy about life and suchly! :] Want some reasons? Here you go...

1) Summer is coming soon!
2) I have the best boyfriend EVERRRR.
3) My weekend was awesome and it made me realize how much I love and appreciate my friends.
4) Speaking of friends, I have a new one!
5) The sun is finally showing his lovely face, at least a little bit.
6) I get to stand up on the stage at school and get a French contest award on Monday... I know it seems dumb, but I'm actually kind of excited about it.
7) I'm already looking forward to the county fair, where I will get to see TWO awesome bands!
8) School is getting easier and more relaxed.

Now, these things are in addition to just the normal reasons I have to be happy, like the fact that I live in a nice house, my parents aren't terribly insane, and I go to a great school. So basically, life is good. I guess maybe here I should insert some encouragement to look around yourself and try to appreciate the little things that you have. I'm working on that, myself.

I'm off to hang with my mommy or something. :] Later, kiddos.

♥

Ok ok ok... this weekend was really busy. I'll just give you little bits and you can ask for deets later if you want them.

Friday: Went to the White Sox game... they got creamed, unfortunately. It was still a fun time, though. There were these 3 boys sitting behind my dad and me... they were maybe 8 or so. Too cute! I found it funny when they kept calling each other "peanut head."

Saturday: Shopped with dad for stuff at Menard's (hardware store). Then, continued shopping for mom's Mothers' Day present at Borders. We got her the first 3 books of The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency. She loves the TV show. Then, grocery shopped for Mothers' Day breakfast (still with dad). Got home and started to get ready for the Junior/Senior banquet. Got all ready minus getting into my actual dress (same one as prom dress) and then left for my friend's house. We all finished getting ready together and took a million pictures (rather, our moms took a million pictures). Two of my friends and I shared one boy, while two other friends shared another boy, and then the one couple within our group at school went together, so we were a lovely, fun, awesome group of 9. :]

We left for Jr./Sr. and to make a long story short, it was a BLAST! Yay! After that, we all went to Steak 'n' Shake! Those of us dating different schoolers invited our boys and then we brought our two freshman boys, too. We all ate and partied. Then, we went back to my friend's house (the one where we got ready) and watched a movie and just hung out... 'til about 4am. Heehee. After the boys left, the girls went to sleep.

Sunday: Dad picked me up from my friend's house. I got home and my daddy and I made breakfast for my mommy (for Mothers' Day!), which was yummy. I made crepes all by myself! They were nummy. I gave my mom her presents, which she liked a lot. After the presents and the eating, I hung out with some of my family for a little while and then my dad took me over to the boyfriend's house. He and I hung out and played Halo 3 and took a nap. (This was all over the course of about 6 hours, haha.) We also got a good talk in about our future(s), so that was good. I think we established that we want to try and stay together as much as we possibly can... pretty basic, but yeah. I kid you not when I say I would be willing to marry this kid. :]

After the nap, I came home, which is where I am now. I just posted a ton of pictures on Facebook and now I am writing this blog. So that brings you up to date. Sorry if you were worried or wondering where I'd gone all weekend! Lots of love!

♥

Woooo I'm going to a White Sox game tonight! :D With my daddy. Should be fun. I love baseball games.

In other news, Junior Senior banquet is tomorrow and as far as I know, it's nowhere near ready. Uh oh. I really hope they can pull it together. I'd be there helping now if I wasn't going to the game tonight. I think I'm going to help tomorrow if there is anything left to do in the morning. I feel really bad for the people there tonight, though, 'cause they're gonna be working hard until pretty late, I'll bet. Good luck, guys!

Speaking of which, we ALMOST had to deal with the drama of someone attempting to sign up for a seat at our table... which only has one person who is actually (or just pretending to be) friends with this person. I'm not trying to sound mean, but seriously... we have TWO of these events EVER, and then we're done... why would we want to screw it up by sitting uncomfortably with someone we don't like all night? Why would this person want to sit with a bunch of non-friends, anyway? So weird. Anyway, the deal ended up being that there was only enough room for a 9 person table, not 10 like we'd thought, so we had already filled the table. Problem solved. Hopefully this person will sit with actual friends, since that makes sense anyway...

Umm... so as to now sound like a total biznatch, I will say a little something nice.

I probably/definitely like you as a person if you are reading this! (On the off chance that I don't know who you are, introduce yourself! New friends are fun.)

Gotta go get ready. Buhbyeeee.

♥

BRUNSWICK ZONE WITH THE BOYFRIEND AND A MUTUAL FRIEND IS THE BEST.

(If you don't know this already, Brunswick Zone is a bowling alley/arcade. We went to the arcade part.)

I don't feel like posting a lot tonight, only this...

My boyfriend got a call tonight from his friend basically just telling him that his (my boyfriend's) ex had her facebook status as simply his name. It's not like it's a big deal, it's just WEIRD. If your name is Tom Johnson, and you are dating Jenny and you used to be dating Jill, how weird would it be if Jill posted her facebook status as "Tom Johnson?" And if you are Jenny, how do you feel?

The boyfriend called a different friend to confirm, as the first friend could have been pranking/stoned, however it looks as though it actually was the way he said it.

I guess it's not a big deal, I'm just wondering wtf it's all about. The boyfriend said perhaps it was her little sister going on her account to mess with her. I don't know either the ex or the sister, so I can't say if that makes sense or not, but I'm just gonna go along with it as a plausible answer until I know what actually is the reason. :]

Basically, weird things happen sometimes.

♥

Not a whole lot to write tonight. I'm tired. :P

Oh oh... I'm officially a member of the Société Honoraire de Français! I got a certificate and everything! Also, my friend Maggie is going to be president next year and I'm going to be an officer with a couple of our other friends. Madame really likes us a lot, I think. Apparently she talks about me in her other classes? Which is sort of freaky but in a cool way. I love her, though. She's super cool.

The boyfriend came over tonight (before the SHF induction, and then he came to it with me and then we went back to my house after), so that was fun. We played Halo 3 and watched tv mostly. Also spent some time trying to figure out what to do. We nearly went to the arcade but then realized he had not so much gas and we are both mostly low on money and also we only had like 2 hours and take off 30 minutes of that for a ride there and back and it really would not have been worth it. We are lame sometimes. :] I love him, though.

Tomorrow is Thursday! Which means I have four 90-minute classes. On Wednesdays, I have 3 of them, starting an hour later than usual and getting out 30 minutes earlier, so all 7 classes happen between Wednesdays and Thursdays. Anyway, I really love Thursdays, because my schedule goes like this:

8:00-9:30: Honors English
9:35-11:05: Computer Apps.
11:10-11:50: Lunch
11:55-1:25: Intermediate French
1:30-3:00: Study Hall

Block schedule is really a beautful thing, sometimes. :] The bad parts are that I really can't stand Wednesdays (sometimes), because they go like this:

9:00-10:30: Honors U.S. History
10:35-12:05: Honors Biology
12:05-12:55 : Lunch
1:00-2:30: Trigonometry

and also because they make for two additional schedules to my week, which makes a grand total of FOUR SCHEDULES. That's right, ladies and gentlmen, there's the Monday schedule, the Tuesday/Friday schedule, the Wednesday schedule, and the Thursday schedule. The nice thing is that we have these lovely contraptions called bells, so I don't really have to worry a whole lot.

What else? Not much, really. I'm pretty boring. :P

Have a nice night/day/etc.!

♥

Postponing the t-shirt post until a day that is not today because I need to do my biology homework. (Insert a picture of me making a sad face here.)

I just got home from Junior/Senior banquet prep! It was really fun. I am very paint-y. My whole face looks ever so nice. ;] White paint all over. Good times.

I actually feel like we got a lot of work done! Hopefully that means we won't be scrambling to finish by the end of it. That's how it is every year, though, so I'm not banking on our year being any different.

What else, what else? I've decided that I am pro-choice. Firstly, I don't think it's my business to force my own beliefs and morals upon another person. (I would likely not have an abortion, however I would not want someone telling me I'm wrong/bad/etc. if I did decide to have one for some reason.) This is especially huge in my mind because basically the essential part of my faith is love, and if I'm forcing my beliefs down someone else's throat, I don't see how that could be "loving" them in any way. On top of that, I think it would be better for a woman to get an abortion in a hospital rather than try to do it on her own. It's much safer to get one in a hospital/clinic, obviously. I'd rather see one person (fetus/baby/"soul"/whatever you want to call it) die than two. I know that is definitely not a nice thing or really a "good" thing to think, but that's the way my mind works.

The above mentioned is open to discussion, however if someone starts sounding either like they are condemning my words or acting as though they are better somehow than I am, the discussion will be close or they will be cut out of it. This is my blog, I write about what I want, and I will not be criticized for it. I'm not saying that you can't dispute what I say, but be respectful and maybe even nice about it. Trust me, it works a LOT better than just being a jerk.

I dunno if I have much else to say right now. I'm tired and I need to get my bio homework done, so I guess I'll go do that.

Night night, friends.

I just went to get some laundry out of the basement (that's where the washer & dryer are!) and I thought of something.

I would like to have a post about my favorite t-shirts. Why? I think clothing, specifically t-shirts can say a lot about people. I already have a couple in my head. I think I will take pictures of them and then write about them.

This post is mostly a reminder to myself to do that at some point.

♥

Hello there, people of Blogger.

I just tried dill pickle-flavored Pringles. DELICIOUS, I must say.

In other news... I'm getting inducted into the French National Honors Society on Wednesday evening. That should be cool.

I finished Death of a Salesman and wrote a review about it for my English class. It was really good. I recommend it if you are a mature reader who would like to read about an old salesman in the... 40s?... who is basically loosing his marbles. Super interesting.

The boyfriend just called me to tell me that he's heading over to my house now... and then he told me that he was DRIVING while on the phone with me. I told him to get off the phone, but he just kept talking so I hung up on him. I know it seems mean, but I will not have him on the phone while he is driving, if I can help it. It's way too dangerous/stupid.

Speaking of which, we are probably going to finish Halo 2 tonight! Hoorah!

Okay, I'm bored of blogging for the time being. Peace out, kids.

♥

Hey there, Birthday Girl!

Hello there!

Just wanting to wish Maggie a happy birthday! Wow, 18!! That's so crazy! Here are some things you can now go out and do! (I know, we talked about this at school already, but I'm figuring it would be fun to have a list written out.)

-Buy cigarettes!
-Buy lottery tickets!
-Go to a strip club!
-Register to vote!
-Get a job somewhere that requires you to be 18! (I think the electronics part of Toys 'R Us is one.)
-Join the military!
-Get a credit card!
-Order something from a commercial! (I suggest BLOWPENS.)
-Get a tattoo!
-Buy pornography!
-Be good! (This is kind of a reverse thing to do, since now you can be TRIED AS AN ADULT!)
-Go to jury duty!
-Date old men!
-Get married!

Hopefully I haven't left any out. Anyway, Maggie dear, I love you tons! I hope your 18th birthday is as awesome as you are!

♥

p.s. If you aren't Maggie and you are reading this, then... well... happy Sunday to you, since it's probably not also your birthday. :D

Prom

Hello! As you already know, prom was last night. Ohmygoodness... so so so so so much fun!

I'm going to be crazy and put pictures up here! (Face included!)

Gotta rock the Converse, baby.

The boyfriend and me. This is my favorite picture from the ones my mom took. (Can't wait to see the ones his family took!)

I did not take any pictures AT prom. I think that was the only bad decision I made last night. Still, it's not like we were with my friends anyway, so I guess I don't mind it much. Next week, at the junior/senior banquet at my school, I'll be sure to take millions of pictures (especially of my "date" and his 4 other "dates!" What a pimpdaddy.)

So... What is there to really tell about prom? We got in, sat around for a while. They brought us dinner, which was pretty good. There was a LOT of food, actually. Too much, I think, but still. The boyfriend and I sat with the usual crowd, who I am getting to know a bit better each time we hang out. Then we opened up the favors on the table (no one believed me when I said that they weren't just decoration!! I kept telling them the bubble wrap underneath the tissue paper meant there was something in the packages!) and they turned out to be these cute photo cubes. I think I left mine in the boyfriend's car. Oh well, I'll get it back at some point.

After the dinner, there was much dancing. For some strange reason, I love to dance, even though I'm terrible at it. (Admittedly, so is the boyfriend, so it's all good. At least we look like idiots together.) Surprisingly, no one else there had my dress! I was so happy! And I got to spend like $100 less on it than most girls, so that was nice, too. Teeheehee. Anyway, I ended up getting a side cramp in the middle of Shout (you know... throw your hands up and shout! that song) but it calmed down during the YMCA, which was immediately after. I dunno why they decided to pair together the two old-school dance songs instead of splitting them up. Basically everything else was hip hop or pop. Just the usual dance mix. No Daft Punk. :'[ But still good.

Time passed by really fast, and all of a sudden it was 11pm, time to go. The DJ played two or three more songs and then everyone had to leave. Sad. But wow, it was so awesome! The boyfriend and I drove back to his house, where we changed into some of his clothes (I borrowed a t-shirt and some shorts) and then his mom drove us to his friend's house. There were maybe 15 people there, some who left early, some who arrived later, but it was about that many overall. The friend's dad was so nice! And wow, he kept bringing us platter after platter after platter of food. It was good. We all just sat around, listened to music, laughed, snuggled. At one point, the boyfriend was analyzing the "snuggle factor" in the room, talking about which couches were well-balanced and which ones needed a little extra snuggle to happen. It made me laugh. At that point, it was about 1:30am and I was getting really sleepy. My mom was coming to get me at 2:30, so I just stayed and snuggled.

2:30 came and I was nearly asleep. I waited for 5 minutes, then texted my mom. Waited another 5 and then called her cell, only to realize that it was not on. I waited 5 more minutes and finally decided to call the house phone and risk waking up my father. My mom answered and then left to pick me up. I was secretly happy she fell asleep because it meant an extra half-hour of snuggle time with my baby! At that point, we had managed to take over the loveseat and I was just curled up in a ball under his arm. It was nice. My mom arrived at about 3am and then I went home, texted the boyfriend goodnight, and promptly fell asleep.

A good night overall, I'd say.

Next weekend is my school's version of prom, the junior/senior banquet, which I am really excited for. I get to wear the same dress and I'm gonna be with most of my best friends. I'm so lucky that I get to go to not one but TWO proms! :) Except there won't be dancing at the one at my school, but still. Super fun.

Sorry for the long post. I just had so so much fun! Hope you are all doing well!

♥

AIM?

I know I keep posting way too much but I was wondering...

anyone use AIM? If yes, want to give me your screenname? We could talk and stuff.

:D

Maggie showed me today that you can get onto this website from the school computers. Most blogging/"social networking" sites are blocked for various reasons, but somehow this one has fallen through the cracks. Teeheehee. :3

Prom is tomorrow! Huzzah!

Related (to the huzzah): I changed my language on Facebook from English to PIRATE ENGLISH! :D It's super fun but I've managed to get lost a couple of times. It still makes me happy, though. Super funtimes, yo.

I discovered a couple of days ago that I can make my phone make this funny noise when I open and close it. I've been showing it off to everyone.

Have I mentioned that prom is tomorrow? :D I should probably charge my camera and paint my nails and shave my legs and make sure I know how I'm doing my hair and that I know where my nylons and my black Converse are. BUT BESIDES THAT, NBD.

I think maybe I'll play Sims tonight. Not sure. I haven't played in a week or so. Booh! I should maybe hop onto Fiesta (mmorpg that I used to play obsessively but it's starting to fizzle out of my life again) to make sure everyone knows I'm not dead. *sigh* I feel bad that I don't play too often anymore. It's fun, but not when you're too high of a level to be able to level up in less than 2 days of relaxed playing. =/
*end nerdrant*

OMGEEZ MAGGIE'S 18th BIRTHDAY IS ON SUNDAY! We're celebrating over lunch tomorrow (and maybe partying later on? Maggie- you should do something big! If you want, of course. Heehee)! So that should be fun. I got her a couple of things that I hope she will like. ;]

Oh and after lunch, I dunno if I've said this already, but I'll be getting ready and then going to prom! Wootsauce.

Tomorrow is a halfday, which means that we'll have 30 minute classes. It's gonna be super hectic, though. I have to disect a crayfish in bio! :[ Not that I mind the disection, just the time limit. And then I'm guessing test correction crap in Trig, and then in English we have a test thing, and after those I think I am home free. Computer Apps, French and Study Hall are generally stress-free periods. :]

So yeah. Crazytime, then birthday celebrations for Maggie, then prom! Lots of stuff happening but it'll be funfunfun. I'm so excited!

That's all for now.

♥

I feel like my blog needs to be prettier. Originally, I picked the layout because it had a star on it that reminded me of Converse shoes. No joke.

But now, I see all these pretty blogs and I want mine to be pretty! I feel so selfish.

Someone want to help me figure out how to make my blog prettier? :3

I think I would like this picture up, nice and big, somewhere:



Doesn't it just make you smile and put little warm fuzzies in your heart?

I was having a bad day, maybe a year or two ago... and I talked to my friend about it. She told me I needed one of those things ^ and so I looked at the picture in the link and it cheered me up. I have no idea where she finds this stuff, but it's one of the reasons I love her so much.

So yeah. Someone help me? (Probably I'll not want to wait and just look on Google for how to do it, but we shall see...)

I have to do some English homework, but it can wait.

I think I want to take a nap? Maybe? Or watch a movie or two. Or maybe none of that. I think I'm hanging out with the boyfriend tonight, so that should be fun. :) I miss him. I haven't seen him since... Sunday. (I know it doesn't seem like that long, but I am spoiled and normally get to see him like every other day-ish, so yeah.)

I've got the worst case of the yawns today. Geesh. Perhaps it's because I'm starting to become exhausted again.

School+college planning+getting hour-long phonecalls at about 1 or 2am on a regular basis = Sleepy Norah.

Aaaaanyway...I should probably figure out how I'm doing to do my hair for prom, since it's in two days(!) and such. It's short, so I believe I will just do a poof with my bangs and then flip out the sides. (Boys, if you don't know what a poof/pouf is, Google has a great deal of images that could show you.) I have these bobby pins with black flowers on them and my mom tied pink ribbon on them (to match the pink sash in the middle of my dress), so I'm trying to figure out what to do with them. I think I might only use one. Maybe I should go try that out like... now.

Hum. I guess that's all I've got to write for the moment.

Oh wait, one more thing.

Have you ever had one of those days when you feel like you're not really looking at anything? Like, you walk down a hallway and there are all these people and things around, and sometimes the people day hi, but you're just kind of walking along in your own head, not really paying attention but still managing not to run anyone over...? I had one of those days today.

Hello, crazy train.

Care to spare a seat for me?

I feel like you should be my bestest pal and it's freaking me out, quite frankly.
WHY DID I NOT KNOW YOU SOONER?
I get the new-friend butterflies from our conversations. Know the feeling? It's crazy-cool.
I kind of just want to give you a high five right now.
Or we could just bake a cake together. That would be cool, too.


It's funny how this applies to multiple people.

DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE ONE OF THEM?

Well if you feel like you are one of them, then you're probably one of them.

I have the greatest biology teacher EVER. Seriously. I am NOT a science-y person, but I like going to bio just because my teacher is psychotic but in a fun way. He has this red chair, and when he pulls it up in front of his desk that he teaches behind, we all know one thing: it's story time. And I don't mean biology-related stories. For the most part, he just tells us random stories whenever there's a little extra time in class (or sometimes when we just need a little pick-me/us-up). So today, he pulled up the story chair, and started talking about how he used to go to his grandparents' farm when he was a kid and how they'd let him feed the chickens with...

CERN CORNELS.

I started cracking up when I heard him say that. He then proceeded to go,

"Cern? CERN?!?!" and then started to laugh... if you knew him, you'd understand why the laugh is a huge part of the story. When anyone hears my bio teacher laugh, they automatically know that it's him. Do you know anyone like that, people you know are around just because of their laugh? If I could possibly put my bio teacher's laugh into type, it would look something like this...

aaaaaAAAAAA HA HA HA *wheeze* HA ha haaaa.....


I can't even begin to explain to you how hilarious it is.

What else? What else? Oh oh, prom is on Friday! Woot!

I managed to cut my ring finger on my right hand with ... wait for it... a HAIRCLIP today.

Today is my middle sister's birthday. (I have three older sisters. She's the middle of the three. Get it? haha.)

It's also my Grandma's birthday. She died a few years ago. I can't remember much about her, but the stories are wonderful. She was really beautiful when she was young. My youngest (but still older) sister looks a lot like her, I think. Evidently, my Grandma spoke French. I didn't know that until my mom told me today. I like knowing it, though. Makes me feel like we had more of a connection that I'd originally thought.

Ummm... I don't know if there is anything else worthwhile to say here. I might post again later if I think of something. We shall see. ♥

OMG ALL THE BLOGS I READ ARE INTERCONNECTED!

>_<

Basically.





Also, some new things have happened in my life this weekend. Nothing you should worry your pretty little head over, though. Just new. :] And that is all.

edit: p.s. Thanks to Allan, I fixed my comments so that if there is only 1 comment, it will read as "1 word of wisdom" instead of "1 words of wisdom." It just makes more sense that way. Allan, I hope you are not mad that I stole your idea. Imitation is the finest form of flattery, right? (I really like that f f f alliteration, there.)

Word Verification Word Of the Day! (I know I haven't done this in a while).

pebrain

(Speaks for itself, doesn't it?)

I'm going to see 17 Again with my friends in like 20 minutes. Not my first choice in a movie, but I'm going with them and they want to see it and I have 1 friend that liked it so... hopefully it will be fun. When it comes to movies, it doesn't matter what we are watching, as long as we're together. We're just like that. Movies are sort of our "thing." Well... that and Pristine Grapes.

You haven't lived until you've eaten a Pristine Grape. We were having grape-asms, I swear. They are so so so wonderful. Too bad they're kind of hard to find.

Anywho, it's been raining all day (and weekend), so I've decided to wear a nice, bright, orange sweater today to make the world a little less gray. I like doing things like that.

Gotta finish getting ready to go! Peace out, kids.

Would it be crazy of me to say that I feel like you're my kindred spirit?

My dear friend Maggie nominated me for a Splash award!

Here are the rules:

1) Put the logo on your blog/post.

2) Nominate up to 9 blogs which allure, amuse, bewitch, impress or inspire you.

3) Be sure to link your nominees within your post.

4) Let them know that they have been splashed by commenting on their blog.

5) Remember to link to the person from whom you received your Splash award.

6) Have F~U~N

*heartsandlove*
(I would nominate A Collection of Photos but it looks like Maggie got to it before me! lol.)
Feel Good Funniez
Laughing Under the Sun
sans séjourné
The (W)riting Room
Things That I Hate
X amount of words
Zymurgy

So there you have it, my nominees! Thanks, Maggie!

Hello, world.

It's 1:30pm and I've done absolutely nothing productive today!

It would be nice if there was food in the house. Generally, I need to eat in order to get myself motivated to do other things. I hungryyyy. (I'll probably end up making some rice soon, since I think we do have that.)

The boyfriend and I had a long discussion last night regarding faith and science, evolution and creation/intelligent design. Evidently, he thought that I believed in evolution (in the sense that we came from a common ancestor that also evolved into apes, and stuff like that). I don't know WHY he though that, considering he's known since day one that I'm a Christian. He told me he finds the idea of creationism ridiculous and he thought I was "too smart" to believe in it, or something like that. His idea of someone who believes in creation is his father's girlfriend's "crazy sister" who apparently is not terribly intelligent and homeschools her children to become socially and intellectually inept. He didn't want to talk about it because he didn't "want anything to come between us." I told him that nothing like that could possibly come between us. We should be able to talk about anything. That's the whole idea of a loving, honest relationship.

The thing that actually hurt me was that he told me he lost a little respect for me when he found out that I believe in creation. He thinks that I've been brainwashed my entire life. I told him about how I didn't really grow up in a Christian home, I haven't been going to church for many years now, and also there were those years in public school when, even though I was surrounded by all sorts of bad stuff, and didn't go to church and never heard anything about faith or God during those years, I still didn't stop believing because there's something in me that knows it's right. (Sorry if you are finding this offensive by now, I'm just writing what I said to him.) I also told him that while he thinks I've been brainwashed, I think the same of him. His father isn't just a non-believer, he's anti-faith in general. He was raised Catholic and hates the church, specifically the PEOPLE in it, and he's taken the liberty to impart that "knowledge" upon his son, who now feels basically the same way.

What bothers me is that so many people think that the faith and the people who believe in it ARE THE SAME THING. They aren't. If someone who thought that Christianity was bad because it made people so judgmental or whatever actually read the Bible, they'd see that it really is THE PEOPLE and not THE FAITH. I can't seem to make that point enough. Nowhere in the Bible does it say "You should hate people who are different" or "Non-believers are evil and you should look down upon them." In fact, there's even a verse that goes like this: And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.(Corinthians 13:13) LOVE, not hate or judgment or criticism, is the most important, fundamental doctrine of the Christian faith. Some people who call themselves "Christians" just can't seem to grasp that. They think that they need to convert everyone, and that all who refuse to believe are horrible, terrible people. No, I'm not saying that trying to teach someone about Christ is wrong, but if they're not gonna listen, don't try to force it on them. It will only make them want to listen less.

On top of that "loss of respect," the boyfriend told me that he knew he couldn't convince me, but if he could, then he would. I asked him why and he said because what I believe in is "wrong." He meant wrong like incorrect, but also morally wrong. I told him that if someone took away my faith, I would be hopeless. From that, he thought that I meant that all people without faith are hopeless in the sense that they're useless and going nowhere in life, but I explained to him that I meant that I, personally, would have no hope in life. I wouldn't be able to live thinking that I was just gonna die and that would be it. I'm the kind of person who needs to know that there's some reason why they're in the world. I've got a purpose, even if I don't yet know what it is. I know that isn't how it is for everyone, but that's how it is for me. I would go nuts if I thought that life just happened and then ended, and that's that.

That's the closest we've ever been to being in an actual argument. (It wasn't even that close, he just didn't want to talk about it because I guess he wanted to just be ignorant of my "foolishness." Not his exact words, but the same idea.)

This morning, he called me right after waking up. He said that he was sorry and that he still respects me, even if he disagrees with what I believe in. He told me that he doesn't ever want anything to come between us because he loves me and that's all we really need. I sure hope so. I know things are going to be tough between us, but I'm entirely unwilling to let him go.

I still stand by my belief that everything happens for a reason. I met the boyfriend at a concert, with him randomly walking up to me. We just so happened to get along perfectly and I knew pretty much immediately that we were basically made for each other. There's no way God would have let that "coincidence" happen unless there's some reason behind it. I guess I'll have to wait and see what that reason is.

Sorry if this post was super boring for you guys. I just had to get that out. It was just so frustrating, especially since it was 1am and the boyfriend was falling asleep toward the end of it, when I wanted to keep talking it out. I sincerely hope that no matter what you believe in, no matter how stupid or crazy or ridiculous you think everyone else's ideals are, you're willing to listen and talk to them about it and not judge them because everyone is different and everyone believes in what they believe for different reasons. I also sincerely hope that if you want to talk about anything, be it this topic or anything in life, you're comfortable talking to me about it. I don't want to be thrown in with people's general ideas of what Christians are like just because I am one. And, if you don't want to talk to me (and that's fine), I sincerely hope that you do have someone that you can talk to about anything.

Hope you all are having good days.

♥

I started my 100% in French blog. My first post is a few sentences long, haha. They're probably not all right, but I'm working on it.

Also, I got invited to be in the SHF (Société Honoraire Français = National French Honors Society) today!! I already filled out my application. Pretty much guaranteed in, though, since

1) I meet all the requirements.
2) I'll be a senior.
3) Madame loves me.

My school is having a coffee house tonight and I'm reading poems at the 9pm slot. I have one in English and 2 French haikus (which... omg, DIFFICULT!). The French ones go like this.

Les crêpes, les gaufres.
Je les aime beaucoup, vraiment!
Ils sont très très bon!

I wrote this haiku too, but I don't like it quite as much. It makes less sense... but still, here it is.

Les nuages crient,
"Vous regardez, tout le monde!"
Maintenant, il pleut.

I'm not gonna translate them. Look them up if you want. This is a great resource for translations. It doesn't work 100% of the time, but you can get the general idea of stuff.

So yeah. That is my life as of now. Poems and coffee and the French language. I have to say, it's a lovely combination. I think I might start a blog to be written only in French, just for practice. I'm a dork, but it's a wonderful language AND linguistics is what I want to go into in college, so it's not that weird for me.

How are you all doing? I feel like I'm doing all this talking and not a lot of listening.
(Ok ok by that I mean a lot of writing and not a lot of reading, but same diff.)

YOU SHOULD CHECK THIS PAGE OUT! :] I think you might like it.



Today was a good day at school. I played with Macs in Computer Apps, and am making a new friend because of it! I love making new friends. You have no idea.
I also attempted to translate a poem I wrote into French... we'll see how well that works out. It kind of makes sense, but I need to ask a French teacher tomorrow to double-check everything.

I think I'm hanging out with the boyfriend tonight, so yeaaaah. :D Not a whole lot else to say atm.

♥

just for me

This is a post that is purely for me. It's just a bunch of nice things people say to me, so that I can look back and go, "hey, there are some really cool people out there." I wanted to save it somewhere other than my own computer in case I, for some reason, lose all my documents on my computer. I think I will save it as a draft so that no one else can see it except me.

"I love you" - Grandpa

"By me clicking this and looking at a dress, ie fashion stuff, you better know that this means that I really like you." - Patrick (regarding me sending him a link to the picture of my prom dress to reassure myself that Zac wouldn't hate it.)

"Wow... I really like this one. Like a lot. You should pursue this." - Guy on PostSecret who liked a poem I posted.

"I will certainly write to an awesome and special person. :)
Love,
a friend from PSC" -an anonymous person on my Greetinger

More up on the art blog.
Yay for things that I did NOT write for English class!! :D

60!

This is my 60th post! Joy! Already I've hit the number of posts that should have taken me two whole months to write (nearly).

To celebrate, I will tell you a little something.

You are awesome.
You are beautiful.
You mean something to someone (maybe me, maybe others, probably more).
You are an individual.
You are capable of doing whatever you want, so long as you try hard and believe in yourself.
You can make an impact on the world, whether it's just one one person's life, or millions of lives.
You are interesting.
You are special.

Aaaaand that's enough of that because I'm starting to feel a little too sappy.

I will be going back to school in 2 and a half hours for the France trip meeting. Woooo.
The boyfriend started his new job yesterday. So far, he likes it. He works at Oberweis, if I haven't mentioned that in a previous post. He has work again today, but I get to see him tomorrow! Yay! :)

I need to get some long, black gloves to go with my prom/banquet dress. I've ALWAYS wanted to wear long gloves. (Yeah, I'm kind of a dork like that.)

I really would also like to go shoe shopping sometime soon. (Like that alliteration?)

That's all I have to say.

♥

I just felt like saying this.

I love cosplaying.

My English teacher wants me to read something at the coffee house on Friday. I'm either gonna write something new or read something I've already written. I get extra credit! Yay!

I think I get extra credit for doing something in French, too, since it's the Paris-themed coffee house this time. My idea is that I might write something in English and then translate it into French and read both. haha. Best of both worlds, right? I started writing one today in study hall about rain... we'll see how that turns out. It would be weather-appropriate.

I'm getting really excited about prom, not gonna lie.

OMG I WANT TO SEE THE DRAGONBALL MOVIE!

That's all.

Good morning, world

I'm thinking maybe I should start giving titles to my posts. We'll see how that works out.

I think I want to try to play PaRappa this morning before school. Don't really have enough time. Maybe one song.

Have a good day. Maybe I'll post more later.

♥

New post in the art blog. Look if you want. it's another poem. I've been posting them every time I finish one for English.

My friend Maggie posted this in her blog, so I've taken the liberty of snagging it and posting it here. I'm not an avid reader like she is, but hopefully I've still read a few of these on the list. :) Anyway, here goes.



According to the BBC, the average number of books read out of this list of 100 books is 6...how sad is that!? Look through it and mark which ones you've read--hopefully its more than 6!

(to make your own just copy, paste and add an "x" to the books you've read)

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen ( )

2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien ( )

3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte ( )

4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling ( gonna start it soon!)

5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee (x)

6 The Bible - (x not in order, lol)

7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte ( )

8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell (x)

9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman ( )

10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens (x)

11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott ( )

12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy ( )

13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller ( )

14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (I've read I think 5 of them)

15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier ( )

16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien ( )

17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk ( )

18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger ( )

19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger ( )

20 Middlemarch - George Eliot ( )

21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell ( )

22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald (x)

23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens ( )

24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy ( )

25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams ( )

26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh ( )

27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky ()

28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck ( )

29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll ( )

30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame ( )

31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy ( )

32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens ( )

33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (x)

34 Emma - Jane Austen ( )

35 Persuasion - Jane Austen ( )

36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (x)

37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini ( )

38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres ( )

39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden ( )

40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne (x)

41 Animal Farm - George Orwell ( )

42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown ( )

43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ( )

44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving ( )

45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins ( )

46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery ( )

47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy ( )

48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood ( )

49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding (x)

50 Atonement - Ian McEwan ( )

51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel ( )

52 Dune - Frank Herbert ( )

53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons ( )

54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen ( )

55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth ( )

56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon ( )

57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens ( )

58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley ( )

59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night - Mark Haddon (about 1/2... I should try again )

60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ( )

61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck ( )

62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov ( )

63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt ( )

64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold ( )

65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas ( )

66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac ( )

67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy ( )

68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding (wow, didn't know this was a book...)

69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie ( )

70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville ( )

71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens ( )

72 Dracula - Bram Stoker ( )

73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett (x)

74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson ( )

75 Ulysses - James Joyce ( )

76 The Inferno - Dante ( )

77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome ( )

78 Germinal - Emile Zola ( )

79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray ( )

80 Possession - AS Byatt ( )

81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens (x but abridged, I think)

82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell ( )

83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker ( )

84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro ( )

85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert ( )

86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry ( )

87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White (x)

88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom ( )

89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle ( )

90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton ( )

91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad ( )

92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery (x in English, hopefully soon in French)

93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks ( )

94 Watership Down - Richard Adams ( )

95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole ( )

96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute ( )

97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas ( )

98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare ( )

99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl (x)

100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo (next year in French!)

so that's 14/100, more than twice the average but still not a whole lot. A few of these I actually want to read, but some of them just sound like... well, poop.

Anywho, that's all you'll hear from me today, I promise! Peace out, homies.

:) The boyfriend's shift on prom night is covered, so I am officially for really reals going to prom this year. Pretty dern excited.

I should probably write a poem for English, since that's my assignment for tomorrow. I always put off this stuff until the last minute.

I'm thinking maybe this weird spurt of depression is over for now. Hopefully. Today was really really really good. I went to a record store with my daddy and boyfriend, and then to a sporting good store, and then came back to my house to play Halo (the first one! we're trying to beat it, since I've never done so because I've never had an xbox/xbox 360). Then, we got some dinner, and then after eating we went back to Halo. What nerds, right? Haha. I guess it's nice that I've manged to find someone as nerdy as I am without being socially screwed over or hard to look at. (Yeah, ok, so I can be shallow sometimes.)

He just left, after we had a nice snuggle in the rain. I remembered how much I love rain. Summer is that much better due to the fact that there is so much rain. I like to leave my window open every night possible during the summer, and the best nights are when it's warm and rainy, so it feels good and smells good. (Evidently, the smell of "rain" is actually the smell of worms, so I guess I love the way worms smell.) Summer is a time when every time problem in the world melts away in the hot sun or is washed away by the pouring rain. It's perfect. I couldn't be more excited.

By the way, I have to add that (aside from live recordings and acoustic re-recordings) I now have every John Mayer album! Granted, there are less than five of them, but still. I feel pretty accomplished, since I LOVE John Mayer and all. (Shutup.) I'm currently listening to my newly bought copy of "Room for Squares." My second choice in the male population to my own boyfriend would be John Mayer (oh yeah, I could TOTALLY be with him, aside from the whole him-being-twice-my-age thing, and that whole I-have-not-met-him thing and such).

I think that's enough for today. I love you!

The boyfriend *might* not be able to get off of work on prom night... after he's already bought tickets AND I've already bought a dress. :[ Not to mention the fact that I really want to go... bleh.

To make matters worse, I think I'm going into some weird state of depression again. I just can't be happy and stay that way for very long. Not that much is happening. Maybe I'm just literally bored to tears. I don't even know.

I've got my first sunburn of the year. Woot. Walked around DT Wheaties (I don't expect you to know what that means unless you are one of my local friends) yesterday and then today I did some yardwork and I wore a tube top so as to not get weird tan lines for ... well. there it is again, prom. I can't escape.

I feel like complete and total crap. I don't even know what's wrong. I got pissed off at my mom today because she was laughing at the fact that I'm not very good at 3-point turns. I mean, she's my MOTHER. She's not supposed to laugh at me and make fun of me. It's not right. Instead of going to another neighborhood to work more on them (instead of just mine and the neighbor's driveways), I just went inside the house, into my room, watched "She's All That" and then took a nap. My mom woke me up from my nap about an hour ago asking if I was okay or if I was just taking a nap. I think she thought I was like sick or something. Maybe she was thinking that I was upset and that she should try to fix it. Yeah, right. Well, either way, she didn't do anything once I told her I'd just been taking a nap.

No more than 2 seconds after that, the boyfriend called because we'd been texting and he knew I was having a bad day. He thinks I think I can't come to him with problems. The truth is that I only come to him with problems when I know he's not busy. By busy, I mean at his dad's house (parents are divorced), at school, at a friend's house, about to hang out with his mom, and so on. He thinks I should just call him so that at least we can talk. What he fails to realize is that most of the time, all I need is a hug. And when he's out and about, he can't give me that. So instead of making him sad thinking about me being sad, I just don't tell him. I guess I've been kind of "standoffish" because of it lately. I can't help it that he's been incredibly busy. The last two times I've tried to hang out with him b/c I was in a bad mood (those being today and... 2 weekends ago?), he's been doing something with other people. He doesn't just drop plans for me, and that's fine, but he can't claim that he's always there for me when he's not. It's not realistic. I just wish people could be a little more realistic sometimes.

Ugh, this post is too long. I'm gonna play Sims.

*yawn*

Summer cannot come soon enough.

Yeah

Ummm... yeah, this is my prom/banquet
dress. It looks better when I'm wearing it, but I don't have a picture of that at the moment so you'll just have to DEAL. :)

Battle of the Bands was good except for the fact that one guy ruined a perfectly good Danger Radio song and another guy ruined a song by NeverShoutNever. :[ I like them (sometimes). But it was still good, and lots of fun. The boyfriend's friends' band won for most people there to see them (there was a running tally for who was there to see which band) and then they ALSO won overall when the judges voted. So that was sweet. They deserve it, considering the fact that they are awesome and all.

Hum. I think I should do my biology homework. Night, kids.

♥

Bah.

Basically my entire weekend has gone from one plan to another plan to an entirely different plan.

Originally, I was gonna go to the lock-in at my school on Friday night (9pm to 6am). Then, I would be sleeping for most of Saturday and homework/etc. on Sunday.

Yesterday, when the whole prom confusion happened, I decided not to go to the lock-in so that I wouldn't be exhausted at prom from staying up literally all night just before it. I was just going to go sleep over and watch movies at my friend Maggie's house.

I just got a call from my boyfriend telling me that the prom isn't until May 1. WTF? Evidently, his school does not know how to update their website. So now I could go to the lock-in, but it's an extra $5 to get a ticket tomorrow on top of the extra $5 from paying after Tuesday which was originally $15 (what I'm trying to say is that it would cost me $25...). I'm not willing to pay that much for a lock-in, so I guess I'm not going to that. =/

Sometimes, I just wish boys understood that they need to ask people straight-forward about what they think about something (in my case, going to prom... evidently the boyfriend thought I "didn't want to go") and then PLAN AHEAD. I don't like having my schedule rearranged like this, especially since all the stuff is time-sensitive.

Anyway, I should stop complaining. I'm still going to prom. I still have an absolutely AWESOME dress.

[just imagine there's a picture here of a pretty dress... this site is being stupid and not letting me upload one right now... I'll try to get one up later.]

Battle of the Bands for the boyfriend's school is tonight, so I must be off.

Bye

<3

Hmm

Evidently, ticket sales are going on all this week.

I just got my dress.

:)

Damn damn damn damn damn.

So I just realized that there's NO chance of me going to prom. Ticket sales ended on April 3rd. Prom is on SATURDAY. :[

Oh well, I guess I shouldn't complain... hopefully something else fun will happen.






Screw it, I'm upset and I don't even care.

I seriously feel like there are two giant hands on my head, just squeezing it. It doesn't hurt, but everything feels very compressed. Allergies? :[

I felt like a 90s mom today at school (I wore this shirt/dress thing and... well that's the best way I can describe it - 90s mom).

In alphabetical order, I have these people following me!:

Allan (edited:oops... I fail at spelling sometimes)
Alphie
Jesse
Rachel
Lee

So props to them for not getting bored/annoyed (at least, not to the extent of blocking/deleting) reading my posts. :)

I wish I had a dopple-ganger that I knew in person. I've only seen one (two?) but never met.

More later. ♥

"Scheduled outage at 2:00AM PDT on Thursday (4/16)"

I definitely thought that it said "outrage" there and not "outage." I was all, "wha? blogspot is mad at me?" (oops, it's blogger now, not blogspot... maybe it's mad because I call it by the wrong name.)

On another note, I just got home from the boyfriend's house. We had fun. I got to eat some pizza puffs. I LOVE pizza puffs (aka pizza rolls or whatever else you want to call them). He starts his new job (yay, Oberweis!) a week from today. I tease him that now he can buy me presents. What I really mean when I tease him is this : I really want to go to prom, and now that you have some form of income, I'm hoping you'll buy us some tickets.

Is that really selfish of me? I feel like it is but... I dunno. It's not fair, I don't HAVE prom at my school (dancing = sin in the eyes of some of the board members of my school... one of the downsides to going to a Christian school). We've got a banquet for juniors and seniors only, but no prom. I love dancing (even though I'm terrible at it), so it makes me sad to think that my boyfriend, who goes to a school that likely has a relatively cheap prom to get tickets for (ghetto district, ghetto town, ghetto school... could I say ghetto one more time?), isn't willing to take me to prom because he just doesn't want to go. Now, the not having money to pay for it thing was legitimate... BEFORE he got a job, but now he's got plenty of time to save up like $100-$200, I'm sure. He's got until the end of MAY, which I would think would be fine.

Meh, I'm just spoiled and selfish.

I've been wanting to go to a prom for as long as I can remember. Up until I met my boyfriend, I never thought I'd have a chance in hell, considering how my school doesn't have it.

*sigh* Hopefully our mutual friend will hint around to him about how much I really want to go.

Sorry if I sound like a total brat in this post. I'm not trying to be that way. Seriously, though, I almost never ask anything of him, so now I'm kind of upset that the one thing I really want is something I can't have (at least, not at this point). He would get so much deposited into his account at the hug bank if he just took me to this one stupid dance. =/

BAH, I'll shut up now.

PostSecret

I think this sums up everything I'm feeling right now pretty well.

Thank you, facebook.

"and to be honest by the look of things your already insane anyways. "

p.s. new post in the artsy fartsy blog. I think I'll just do a little update on here every time I post something there.

I eat in the stairwell at my school. It's fun. I like it. My friends and I moved there from a teacher's classroom, where we had originally moved to from the cafeteria because it was too crowded. We are sort of nomads like that.

We have a pass to eat there, meaning no one else is allowed to. We got a pass b/c we got in trouble for eating there once. We make sure to clean up after ourselves, even the little crumbs. So far, it's been nice.

Sometimes, though, someone will bring a friend or a couple of friends who are not on the pass. These are people who (hate to say it) we do not like. (By "we," I mean the original 6 girls in our group. A couple of guys have joined us, and they are the ones who bring their friends.) When this happens, the stairwell gets too crowded and the conversation splits from one into two or three. Not fun. Usually, when the place gets too crowded, we'll leave. It's sad that we can't even been in our own spot.

Anyway, today was one of those days. Someone brought along, not only extra people, but one who used to go to our school but transferred out and her friend who had never gone to our school. The gals and I decided to leave (after waving the pass in their faces and telling them to leave, nicely, and them not listening). We walked around the school, and when we started heading back, someone told us that the people who were not supposed to be in the stairwell had gone in after we'd left and started lighting sparklers. Not only is it stupid, it's against the rules. The smoke alone could set off the fire alarms or the sprinklers (which flood the whole school). I know for a fact that the alarm was once set off by something on a bunsen burner in the chem lab, no more smoke than burned popcorn. Then there are those rules like "no fireworks etc. in the school" and "no lighters in the school" and whatnot. On top of it all, one of the guys who actually is allowed to be in the stairwell with us managed to be an idiot and burn his hand on one.

Needless to say, I'm pissed. My one sanctuary in the whole school has been compromised. This is the one place I have to be with my friends, the small group of people in the school that I actually give a rat's rear about, and another select few is ruining it, day by day. I hate to be so exclusive, but I really really really enjoy having time to talk to my friends and be with them without a hundred other people crowding around us, being annoying.

I set my facebook status to say something about how stupid it is to light sparklers inside a school, or any building. Next thing I knew, this girl was leaving me a message about how it was "no big deal" and how they didn't get caught so it "didn't matter." We went back and forth about it, I pointed out all the things that WERE actually a big deal about it, none of which seemed to matter to her. It seems to have halted to my response to her calling me "immature." Yes, I'm immature because I respect the rules and because I like to spend 25 minutes a day with my good friends. I must be regressing back to age 5 as I right this, eh?

Hum. To make a long story short: People should really think about what they do and how it might affect other people, especially in a public environment like a school.

LOL

This was my most recent word verification test:

hentied

Happy Easter! :)

I went to church this morning with my mom, grandpa, and aunt (it was at her church). It was a good service... kinda weird since I haven't actually been to church in a while. It's really hard for me to go to church and not hate it 90% of the time. I'm very picky. I don't like them too big or small, I hate it when they have everyone read something out loud at the same time, I hate the sound of organs (for the most part)... I just hate a lot of things about a lot of churches. And then there are church people... they tend to drive me nuts. It's really weird, because I'm a Christian and everything, but church... buh. I have chapels at school 2 days a week (sometimes 3), so I guess that's still good. Those I don't hate in the least (usually).

ANYWAY, after church we went to my aunt's for lunchie and it was yummy. We had lamb, and a lamb-shaped cake (which I frosted!) and some other tasty stuff. I then proceeded to take a nap, and then when I woke up, I had my 4th cup of coffee for the day (mmm) and then we drove home. It was kind of strange.

Now I'm at home, and I have to do some homework but I'm thinking it can wait for a little while, since all it is is reading for history. Shouldn't take too long. I think I also have to write a poem for English, but I believe that it is not due until Tuesday, so I'll be putting it off until tomorrow night. Yipee!

Strangely enough, I'm fairly sleepy right now. I need MORE COFFEE. Only not really. (Kidding about the coffee, not the sleepy part.)

Have a nice rest of your Easter (etc.)!

-me